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Saturday, June 22, 2013

The downside to having been fat your whole life (and having tried to lose weight a thousand times) is that no one takes you seriously when you are actually being successful. I have kept my Weight Watchers from all of my friends because they have all been there through my thousands of attempts of losing weight where I have failed miserably. Now that I am actually being successful (down 23 lbs, I consider that a success) I am starting to branch out and tell some of my friends. I started with telling a cousin who has always had a weight problem as I have and I knew would understand and appreciate how hard I have worked. Next I decided to tell my best friend from high school. She has seen me yo-yo diet for years. She has seen me excited about losing 5 lbs and cry when I put 10 more back on. I thought she would be more excited for me. It actually kind of hurt my feelings when she didn't seem to care. In my mind I feel like she thinks I am crying wolf. Its like she thinks I am saying "I'm losing weight, I am losing weight" just like old times and she doesn't want to get excited for when I fail. I know and hope that this isn't the case, but it is the vibe I am getting.
I love the people who are in my life - I know that I have let them down in the past, but this is a new chapter in my life. I am done being fat - I'm done fearing for my life - I'm done with shortness of breath and chest pains... To everyone who I have told and asked to support me before when I didn't truly mean it, I apologize. To everyone who is supporting me now, thank you. Support is an amazing motivator. Knowing I can come on here and talk to people who know what I feel like, know what I'm going through, and support me in my journey to free the skinny person inside of me - has been a huge help and motivation. Knowing I'm not alone in this is what has kept me strong - even when I have been plateaued the past few weeks, the fact that I haven't sky rocketed up has been amazing.

Thank you to all my my spark people friends and fellow journey takers.

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    Wow...I could have easily written this blog..sounds so much like me!
    You're doing an amazing job....keep it up girl!
    1819 days ago
    Just keep up the good work and if you keep going and keep it off more and more support will come from those old friends. For now, just "show them" and later they will show you support. :)
    1819 days ago
  • KACAR51
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    1825 days ago
    emoticon You're on the right path. Keep up the good work.
    1825 days ago
    Good on you for losing 23 pounds,that is so cool. It is even better that you have persevered even when you have not lost weight.Because it is going to take lots of determination and perseverance to keep losing weight and to reach each goal. Keep up the great work, you are doing well emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1825 days ago
  • DIANE7786
    Congratulations on your weight loss! When I decided to lose weight, it was shocking that the people I thought would support me didn't. At first my weight loss motivation diminished because I spent too much time thinking about my hurt feelings. Soon support came from very unlikely people. Sparks and WW encourage a strong support system. I believe that it's a personal experience. Learning what to eat, finding recipes, reading Sparks, doing some challenges, keeping a journal, etc made weight loss almost a hobby. You don't have to apologize to anyone. I like the Chinese proverb, "fall down seven times, get up eight." My suggestion is that you talk to those who don't support you about any topic except weight loss. Take full advantage of all Sparks and WW offers, including the strong support. .
    1825 days ago
    Great start!! Keep up the good work!!
    1825 days ago
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