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My fat connection

Friday, June 21, 2013

Talking to some family members at a recent family reunion,I was able to piece together some clues into myself.My food addiction being at the top of the list.My dad's mama was skinny and was ridiculed her lifetime.I was the same way so she decided to fatten me up so I wouldn't be ridiculed.It didn't work but she was determined every summer to make my life a living hell,not purposely though.Several of her grandkids came to spend the summer and they accused me of being her PET.She was tireless in her endeavor to fatten me up.My plate at mealtime would be heaped with food and sides of cake,pie,cookies.I literally hid from her!Grams was obsessed with making me gain weight.Fried chicken,Pork chops,steak,potaoes,dumplings,
yeast rolls,cake,cobbler,icecream and fudge were a daily buffet.I was singled out and picked on tirelessly by my cousins.I spent a lot of time crying and staying as invisible as possible.My Aunt said that my great and great-great grandmothers were morbidly obese.They passed down their pain through grams and made her feel like she wasn't like them.She was skinny but healthy.She didn't want me to feel the way they made her feel!I lost out on time with her because of it.Some point in my head I made a connection that I needed to gain weight in order to be accepted.Does any of this make sense?
My aunts and cousins sat me down and explained it and it finally made sense to me. emoticon SUSAN
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    I liked your comments about your past. It's sad so much time was wasted in "fattening" you up so you would be acceptable. I think those were the times when it was thought that a fat baby was a healthy baby and skinny kids would die faster. Times have changed but you look great! I am happy for you in breaking the generational rules that were heaped upon you. It's a great look into your past.
    1791 days ago
    Understanding our past can be used to positively affect the future.
    1794 days ago
    Now the past can stay in the past and the future can begin!!!!!!
    1795 days ago
    I guess that it's the same with being overweight; people make you feel like you have to lose weight to be accepted. And I know that for me as long as it's about weight and not about health, I'm not motivated to keep going. It's been really hard for me that way.

    Being able to pinpoint that moment is good news though. If you know why you put the weight on, it makes it easier to turn your thinking around and to lose the weight. Good job!
    1795 days ago
    That is a great breakthrough. Hopefully it helps you on your fitness journey!
    1795 days ago
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