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feeling absolutely dreadful

Friday, June 21, 2013

today no better than yesterday... I feel like a drug addict... all I can think about is food... not even food in general but chocolate... lollies.... and a coke... boy, right now I could kill for a coke. All I want to do is eat. Eat the food I'm thinking about. I wanna eat chocolate and not only one piece or two, no the entire package which I know is somewhere in the pantry. So far, I munched on healthy things, apples, bananas, nuts... but I WANT a sugar high... I WANT to binge... which is so ridiculous. I feel weak...and pathetic... and just plain stupid. And I don't know how I can prevent myself from binging. Husband is out for the night, I'd never binge in front of him, but he's gone. Nothing tastes nice... nothing satisfies right now, no popcorn, no apples, no applesauce, no yogurt... yet I know that once I'd be finished with the chocolate I'd feel even more revolted.

Writing it all down has certainly helped. Yet I don't know if it'll last me through the night... no idea what tomorrow's blog entry will bring.
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    Hope you made it through the night without bingeing! You are so close to your next goal! Don't do what i did and ruin your hard work. That bingeing is not worth it.
    1768 days ago
    Hope you made it...but if you didn't, keep going.

    those cravings are murderously hard, but they don't last. if you can get out of the kitchen, or better yet, out of the house and do something else it gives your brain something else to do and makes it stop whining for sweets.
    I think there is something in a woman's brain chemistry that causes that...I never read a man's blog where he is dying for chocolate.
    Speaking of chocolate, have you tried any of the no-sugar kinds? some of them are pretty good.
    1768 days ago
    Don't do it!! Imagine how good you will feel about yourself if you DON'T binge! All you have to do is get through today. Focus on doing something active -- get out of the house, away from the chocolate! You can do it!!!
    1768 days ago
    Hope the cravings are gone by now!
    1769 days ago
    How about drinking a cold glass of water and then treat yourself to 5 special dark chocolate mini squares. Good luck!!

    1769 days ago
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