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Thursday, June 20, 2013

I feel like I've been out of touch. Even though I've been checking in, spinning the wheel, logging my nutrition and exercise, I haven't been keeping up with my Spark Friends' blogs. I definitely feel the absence.

I've hit sort of a weird phase. I'm not necessarily unmotivated, but starting at the end of last week I felt like I hit a brick wall physically. All of a sudden, my exercising became more difficult. I'm pushing harder than I have just a week or two ago to do the same stuff. It's almost as if I've regressed physically. I also have found myself fantasizing about food quite a lot! This week my weight has gone down by quite a bit, even so. I haven't logged it yet, since I don't do official weigh in's until Saturday. I'm wondering if some weird physiological thing has been switched on/off somehow. I feel really worn down for no discernible reason.

This week, I bought myself a new pair of shorts. They are in a regular size 16 (as opposed to 16W). They fit! Hooray! When I first put them on, they felt a little small as I pulled them up my legs. I started to get a sinking feeling as I reached for the waist in order to begin buttoning and zipping. I thought it was going to be a struggle to do it but it wasn't. Everything was fine. There's no loose wiggle room and they wouldn't fit if I gained even a tiny bit, but they are denim so perhaps they will loosen up. The thing is, they aren't tight. I could even wear them without a longer shirt that hides my muffin top and pooch areas. So hooray for new summer shorts that will go with any summer shirt!

This Saturday, my daughter leaves to go visit my ex-husband in Atlanta for the summer (until August). This always makes me incredibly sad for a few days until I adjust to the freedom of it. I always miss her terribly but it will be nice to not have to ride herd for a bit. I'll visit her in July and take her to the aquarium in Atlanta. Outside of that, I'll use this next month and a half to devote myself to exercise while I still can before school starts back up and life gets hectic.

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    Yeah - I have those moods too.
    2129 days ago
    Yes, alone is great when you have good use for the time! And being apart often enriches our closest ties. Blessings as you say goodbye to your daughter, though--it's still hard.

    I periodically go through a day, or a few days, when exercise seems especially difficult. Sometimes I think it's blood pressure (mine tends to be low) & I eat a small salty something & that helps. Other times it's probably hormone or other chemical shifts. It's clear that you're sticking with the program, in any case--big congrats on fitting into the skinnier shorts!

    2134 days ago
    Congratulations on your new summer shorts,as for the exercise problems see if you can do other work outs for variety . . . it might help.
    2134 days ago
    Congratulations on your weight loss and fitting into the new shorts. There are times exercise and weight loss can be effortless and then there are those other times it's a struggle. Keep doing the right things. I know you will miss your daughter, but you can focus on your journey to better health.
    2134 days ago
    You hit the nail on the head, Sweetheart. Your energy and 'mojo' sank because your little one is making your heart sink a wee bit. You'll pull it out as soon as you get her where she's going and begin to get your new rhythm in gear. Very natural response it seems to me.
    And don't forget...we're all right here to DRIVE YOU CRAZY while she's gone :-).
    Throw yourself into program and you'll be going to Atlanta to see her before you know it!

    LOVE LOVE LOVE you, Holley!!
    2134 days ago
    Awwww hugs! Ruts happen, maybe you can shake things up a bit? Find a new workout or recipe to get your fires going again? Even if it is just a ten minute youtube workout video - just something different and challenging in its newness? Just an idea.

    Hope things turn around for you soon!
    2134 days ago
  • KASE72
    I know the feeling well. Just that you know it's there and can articulate it so well means you will be able to fight it. I wish you strength for the fight.
    2135 days ago
    Best of luck on adjusting. And congratulations on taking your own power back!
    2135 days ago
    I think your feelings are very common. I kind of go in and out of moods like that too. I think your daughter leaving might have something to do with it as well. Anytime something major in our routine changes, it kind of takes some adjustment time. I have no doubt that you will get back 100%!
    Awesome job on the size 16s! I am almost there but not quite. My 18 regulars are getting a little too loose, so hopefully I'll soon be able to join you there!
    2135 days ago
  • SUMMER2203
    i kind of know the feeling...i've been on-track but not feeling as "in the game" lately as i have been. i think that the alone time will be awesome for you - i am actually super excited to read your blogs the summer and hear about you focusing on yourself and being healthy on your own schedule :)
    2135 days ago
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