Thursday, June 20, 2013
As I have reported "My" theatre has worried me lately - I don´t feel happy or energized when I´m there and I have tried to talk about it a couple of times but nothing changes... so I wonder if I shall stay around or leave after this summer... and thinking about leaving makes me sad, partly because I do like the people although I don´t like their way of communicating. And partly because I do like to perform and learn new things...
And yesterday I was reading in the paper about a church in the city that produced a play this spring - I reviewed it for my paper and it was the story about "the lost son" (is it the same in english?) and they had used a local theatre to get help with choreography, costumes, directions... and I am a former church janitor and choir singer that has seen a lot of "churchy" dramatisations I am also very familiar with the theatre company - and the combination was enchanting and turned out very well. Now I read that they wil continue to work with drama and realised that it could be an opportunity for me, they might want to use my talents... wrote them a mail. This does not mean I have given up on the theatre but it means that there are other opportunities if I find that I can´t handle that anymore.
Other thing - doctor called and told me that all my tests were great - blood samples and EKG all showed that I am healthy, he prescribed some medication that is dieuretic and I will have new tests at the end of the summer. I said to him that I have been very clear about my overweight being the cause for most of my health problems and asked why he did not respond to that at all? Did he have anything to say about it? (I had told him that I tried to lose weight all winter with the result of gaining ten kilos...) He started to talk about gastric bypass - I said that with a BMI over 40 I am well merited to have one but as a compulsive overeater I thought it might not be the best cure to take away the result instead of treating the disease... he told me that he would look into the matter, he had not been in our region very long and did not know about our resources.. for the moment I suffer so badly from bth the overweight and my inability to change it, that I am willing to consider a gastric bypass. But I don´t like the idea for me - I have always been very healthy and am scared to mess up the systems that have served me so well if I tamper with my digestion system too much. I am also scared that it won´t help, I know many people who has managed to regain the weight even after a bastric bypass and then they suffer from both malnutrition and overweight... but it is a good thing to talk about it, maybe it will help me towards some solution that might work.
Midsummer is coming up - I was invited to some friends yesterday and it was a nice invitation - this friend has retired and when she did, she sold her house, bought a camper and started to go south during winters. Two years ago she met a widower in Sicily and they drove in caravan back to sweden, sold their campers and bought a bigger one together... They have been in Portugal this winter and have managed to get a job as lock servants in the river system west of VÄnern. With that job comes a cottage that they keep for free all year around and the job is of course only during summer - there is no freight traffic, only leisure boats in that river system and I think the season starts in the beinning of june and ends at the beginning of september.
There is a guest hous I can stay in, doggy is welcome too. Two other friends will go there with their camper and I think it will be nice - five people, three dogs and not that much alcohol (midsummer is a BIG drinking opportuinity in Sweden...) The only thing that bothers me is the cost of gas - I don´t get my wage until tuesday but I will manage I think.