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Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Well, I'm giving this another go. I seem to keep failing and it's frustrating. Sometimes it's easier for me to just say "meh" and be who I am. I know that I'm not supposed to be in the 230s. The only other time I've been this heavy, was the week I gave birth. I'm with a really great guy that I know I'm going to marry. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me, aside from my son, obviously. We're going to be moving in with each other in the next few weeks.
It seems absolutely ridiculous, but I feel like I had more motivation to lose the weight when I was fighting for my relationship with my son's father. He told me he wasn't attracted to me and made me feel like dirt. But I tried my hardest because I wanted him to see what I could become. With Jason, I don't need to prove that. He tells me every day how beautiful and perfect I am. While i really love how much he loves me as I am, I know that it's just fueling me to stay the same. Stuck in this rut in which I can't manage to find my way out of. Hmmmmm I'm just totally lost.
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  • MISSG180
    First of all, it's fabulous that he loves you for who you are. External pressure like your ex put you under is never helpful. Hating yourself DOES NOT HELP. We don't take care of things we hate. Feeling loved and lovable is good for you.

    You need to make realistic goals that respect where you are and is about your health, not some arbitrary number. Your health will be improved just by getting some exercise. And your health is what is most important. I bet your guy would agree.
    1799 days ago
  • BOVEY63
    It is so nice seeing you back on SP!
    Also wonderful that you have a man who appreciates you for you! I have found that too, and it is wonderful!!! I wish all the best for the three of you!
    1800 days ago
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    1800 days ago
    You can do it. You have to do it for yourself first and then your baby! You want to be a strong, healthy mother who will be around a long time for your son.

    I KNOW you can do it. Surround yourself with people who have the same goals and be accountability partners to each other. Keep each other motivated!

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    Keep it up!
    1800 days ago
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