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Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Aptly titled....

I went back to work - and fell off the spark's hurts really, if anyone has ever done such a thing. I was scared to come back...sorry that I have disappointed people, afraid to face myself. I know that falling off the wagon hasn't hurt anyone else but me.

My knee is doing great - has been a long journey through physio and i have been getting back to my exercise, but not as fervently as I had previously, nor have I been as conscientious in my healthy eating.

I am excusing myself...otherwise known as making up excuses...none of which hold a lot of water when one sits back and plays the devil's advocate. I know that i am resigned to having OA and the troubles it causes, but it doesn't help to sit on the sidelines and watch it take your life away. I have always been a fighter, and while some of the fight has definitely gone out of me, I still, in my stubborn Scottish warrior way need to keep plodding on ahead.

I need to watch Mel Gibson in his movie that depicted the war between clans. I need to change up with stinkin' thinkin' and get myself back on the track of being healthy by making healthy rewarding choices for myself not self defeating ones. I need to be my own best keeper.

The fight has begun - I will NOT let OA rule me. I will NOT let depression and job stress win. I WILL MAKE HEALTHY AND WISE CHOICES - CUZ I ROCK!

Who will join me in the battle of healthiness and happiness?
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    Welcome back. Never feel like you have to be scared to come back here. we all have rough patches. But it's about not giving up on Ourselves!
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