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Tuesday, June 18, 2013

My sweet, gentle Uncle Bernard lost his life in a basement fire. He was 89, has been dealing with health issues for 25 years, but with a smile, never complaining, and despite it all, found energy to attend reunions of his Army buddies, my sons weddings, trips to care for my grandmother, his mother-in-law.

So - a wave of guilt over not being able to make the very expensive last minute trip back to the Midwest for his service - has been hanging over me today. Food was OK until tonight - and I succumbed to a bag of popcorn (no additional butter). For the second day in a row, I skipped my workout. Yesterday started at 6 am, and I pulled back in my drive at 10 pm. I stayed perfectly on the food plan, but skipped cardio yesterday, too.

I miss my Uncle Bernard. I worry about my Aunt who is a tuffie on the outside, and must be crumbling on the inside - lost her partner of 70 years, nearly lost her home of those same 70 years.

Tomorrow, another early day and stacked up meetings. But, it's a new day ,the gym bag and lunch bag is packed, and I've just booked airfares for an August trip. There will be 20 pounds less of me when I board that flight on 8/13.

Peace, and comfort.


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  • EQUUS123
    Thanks, team for your support! I am not getting auto-emails when comments are posted, so just seeing this. Means so much, your words truly help. XO emoticon
    1831 days ago
    {{{Equus) - I'm so sorry for your loss. Please be gentle with yourself and take good care of yourself.
    1831 days ago
  • LORI3679
    I'm so sorry for your loss. emoticon
    1831 days ago
    So sorry for you loss. They are a very handsome couple and look very happy. Blessing to you and your Aunt at this difficult time. At least you will be able to visit at a later date. Sometimes those visits are more important to those who are left behind because they are sometimes feeling forgotten after the initial gatherings and expressions of sympathy are done. I'm sure your Aunt will need you then as well.God bless emoticon
    1832 days ago
  • JO88BAKO
    So sorry for you loss. Hope you can call your Aunt and talk.
    1832 days ago
    You, your Aunt, and your entire family will be in my thoughts and prayers. My most sincere condolences for your loss. emoticon

    1832 days ago
    I'm so sorry you lost your uncle. It's hard for anyone to keep a normal routine when things get busy much less when tragedy strikes.
    1832 days ago
    Lose is hard emoticon but dont beat yourself up over what you can not change. Looks like you have good plans for the near future starting with tommorrow! Stay strong and remember to do what is best for you! emoticon
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  • SOFT_VAL67
    so very sorry for your loss, its a special kind of tragic when someone lives to be that age and dies not from a old age ailment but accident.
    hope your family finds comfort. emoticon
    1832 days ago
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