I DID it and I GET to do it
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
I feel like I slightly fell off the wagon. I moved twice in two weeks. First time was just to store things in the condo I own...with my ex...ick. I did it to get out of where I was so it could get all cleaned up by the 1st yet I was in limbo for the house I was moving into while I painted it and waited for the new carpet to be laid. I kept up on my workouts as best I could by using the living room there that was packed full of stuff, running, bringing my toning TurboFire DVD's to work, etc. Painting and moving are workouts all on there own but I still felt and do feel bad about missing out on days at a time of my TurboFire schedule, I haven't kept up on my push-up challenge and my water intake is between 2-6 cups a day.
Last week I ordered Brazil Butt Lift from BeachBody and TurboFire Advanced DVD's. I received the package on Saturday and it felt like Christmas so I know my motivation has gone nowhere, I'm just exhausted. The gleam in my eyes tells me I'm ready to get back to it, that I feel joy from taking care of myself by working out, all of my furniture is moved though, most of it is put together and other things are coming together. I spent my lunch today looking over my workout schedule seeing how I can pick back up where I left off and asked one of my TurboFire Challenge workout buddies if she'd like to test out my new DVD set with me today after work.
I've been down about falling off my challenge. It's sad to see my schedule thrown off but I need to look back at this last month and be proud of what I kept up. I did continue to eat well. I still looked up meals, stayed on Spark almost everyday when I could get to it and tried to do something everyday to keep up with my fitness. I ordered three sets I'd been wanting for a long time (the two mentioned and Zumba Total Body Transformation) and the last few times running outside I have noticed my stamina is increasing because I can handle the hills much better and run farther. I've joined a running group at work headed by our VP of the company who is an Ironman competitor and does marathons all the time. She's doing it for free for people who want to run the 5k Breast Cancer Walk on our group team in October. AMAZING opportunity, people pay buttloads to have someone as amazing as her train them. I was strong enough to move most of my furniture with just one other male while a few friends did the little odds and ends lifting because they couldn't really lift the heavy stuff like we could. That is strength! I've maintained my weight and none of my clothes are getting too small, I've actually been able to fit into all my clothes that were in storage from years ago. I've also done all this while still doing a few photography sessions for people (I do photography on the side) and have had excellent quality time with my little girl and a few close friends.
I stress about money, time, moving, my little girl, everything. I've always been that way, I wish I wasn't but I am and I have to work on it almost everyday of my life. While I get down on myself a lot, today while I was down I decided to focus on what I have done and here it is. When I look at it I don't feel like I "let myself go" as much anymore because I did actually A LOT in these weeks. Now that I see it I really did and it makes me proud instead of so down. And I plan to get back on my DVD's tonight and honestly while I haven't done them 6 times a week as I'm supposed to I still have done them a few times a week.
It's all about attitude and perspective and I just proved it to myself:) And tonight when I do my workout it'll feel like a much deserved holiday or vacation from this all just like how workouts felt before this all, the way they should. I love working out. Not work but a privilege. I don't HAVE to work out tonight, I GET to workout.