I've been struggling....HALT!

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Hey peeps. In my pledge to myself to blog about the good and the I am. I'm on Day 15 of my 4th 21-day cycle...and I've been struggling emoticon Big time! It started on Day 4...I'd had a really hard week of work, and I went home that Friday, lay on my sofa, and ate things that are NOT on plan. This slip continued for Days 4 through to 14...AND I'VE HAD ENOUGH! I'm hitting 'HALT' 'STOP' 'PAUSE' whatever!

How can I go from celebrating my 30 lbs lost, and then just 2 days later I'm slipping!? What is that even about? Real self-sabotage. No, I don't think I'm scared to reach my goal weight...I am EXCITED to reach my goal weight. And I'm SO close...closer than I've ever been. Am I complacent? Nope, I don't think it's that either. I've really been working on the mental aspect of this weight loss thing and I know and accept that this is something I'll be working on and being mindful of the rest of my life, and I'm cool with that too. Bored? Maybe I got bored. I don't know how though; I've been creating new recipes, and really enjoying it all. Lazy? That sounds like it could be it (sorry, I'm just thinking 'out loud' here!). Yeah, I think I got lazy. Days 4 through to 14 I worked out a total of ONE time! ONE! There is a whole row of red shading on my workout spreadsheet now, and 10 days of no stickers on my calendar emoticon

So anyway, I'm actually done. 10 days and enough is ENOUGH. I mean it. You won't hear me coming back here tomorrow saying 'slipped up again guys'. I irritate myself when I do that, and who wants to irritate themselves?! I'm not starting back at Day 1 either...I'm on Day 15 of 21 (which is 78 of 84) and I'm powering on. Like I said, my 21-day cycles are not about being perfect; it's a journey of learning, being mindful and not giving up, and I haven't done that. I'll never do that. Pinky promise.

So yes, this has been my least successful 21-day cycle so far. The first 3 cycles were spot on; like Woubbie said, maybe I needed this 4th cycle as a 'catch-my-breath'. Well, my breath has been caught, I'm getting back on track emoticon

(I'm back in London with internet so back to Sparking. Last week I was in no mans land with no access to the 'net and it was so annoying! Need to catch up on what everyone's been up to x)
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    EVERYONE HAS THEIR ROUGH SPOTS...if they say they don't they are lying!

    You have been making amazing progress and are such a motivator to me! Thank you for being honest...It helps me go easier on myself when I slip up. We are real people who have real victories and unfortunately so tough times's so important to share rock!


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  • KNH771
    No one is perfect. The important thing is that you're making an effort to learn more about yourself and improve.
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    Just jump back on board!!
    2774 days ago
    What is done is done! But from what you are saying, you are learning lessons from it (the good AND the bad) and that's the most important.
    Good luck getting back into the swing of things - you've done it before, you can do it again!! emoticon
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    I love what Woubbie said. Lol! But girl, you caught it, hit the 'stop' button and now you're back on track! It's all good!I know you're gonna make your goal. No doubt about it. And I'm not just saying that either. Do your thing girl!
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    I am sure we have all been there. I know I have! It happens and all we can do is stop, pick ourselves up and move on. You can do it. Congrats on your weight loss. Thats so awesome!
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    Good luck with getting back to it : )
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    Maybe having no Spark access set off the internal "jailbreak". Your wayward inner child got loose and ran amok in the living room with crayons and finger paint.


    Sure, it was fun, but now "mom" has to get back in there and clean it up, and that's NO fun.

    Oh well, but you'll be so much more relaxed when the living room's all tidy again, right?

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