Reading a friend's thoughtful blog...
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
This morning I read the last two blogs written by HELEN_BRU and they are highly recommended! In them, Helen discusses a book she read recently which has changed her perspective on weight loss. As Helen explains, the part of the book which turned her around was the re-telling of the case of:
"...a successful professional woman who lost her zip in her company after many happy and energizing years. She obviously did the work she loved but couldn't get back into things the way she did in the past. She had become contented. So the author told her, 'she had lost control'. Those were the missing and magical words for her condition and malaise."
For most of the numerous sparkers who left comments, what hit them in these 5 sentences was that it was the loss of mental control which had precitated this patient's condition and malaise. They saw in this their own loss of control precipitating overeating. This is very true.
For me, however, the more important sentence in Helen's paragraph is:
"She had become contented."
Ahhhhh, therein lies my problem. This is hardly the problem I had when I was much younger, but it has been the why and the wherefore of my lack of success in turning off the compulsion to overeat for many years now. I have been subconsciously content with the trade-offs I make, as far as the benefits of overeating and the unpleasant consequences. When I have lost weight in the past, it is always because I have had a burning desire to lose weight. After I achieve some measure of successful loss I become happy and contented, which is followed by overeating and gaining back weight. This phase lasts until I again have a burning desire to lose weight, and so on.
I always realized I had very little "willpower" but it makes more sense for me to realize I had too much subconscious contentment about my weight. It was really just easier to go right on eating. Consciously and verbally, I have never stopped wanting to lose weight and be thinner, but the mind plays tricks and I actually respond to the part of my mind which compels me to overeat.
Okay, can this help me to put the cart BEHIND the horse and decide to push away the contentment and put the brakes on my eating? I believe it's a necessary start. As much as I have always thought the compulsion to overeat is too strong for me to resist, for today I am taking back control and refusing to give in to my contentment.