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Binges! Help!

Monday, June 17, 2013

I am disheartened by witnessing my last three out of four days and how out of control they have been.

After my binge a few days ago, I fully expected that I could easily get back into the grove of depending on God for strength. Something in me is just fighting the help I could easily receive if I really wanted it. I see myself rebelling.

First, I had said I wouldn't beat myself up over my binge. But I did.
Next, I said I wouldn't purge by exercising like a crazy woman...and that's exactly what I did. On two days.
I also did another thing which perpetuates the binge cycle...I restricted calories (extremely) for two days.

These things all backfired and I ended up binge eating for two days.


I have shed tears. I am now coming to you all who have binge problems, especially those of you who have had some or much success overcoming. Does it get easier to pick yourself up and return to normalcy?

I wish my tastebuds would suddenly have an aversion to the taste of sweets. I am even asking for this in my prayers. Or at least to be satisfied with just a few bites.

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    It is always something that can happen we all get bad days but you are doing great by sharing them with us. You can get over this you know what to do. Even when maintaining it can be so difficult it is been mindful forever
    Hope to-day is better
    1832 days ago
    In my experience bingeing leads to more bingeing, which really should keep me from doing it. Hang in there, you can do it!
    1832 days ago
    I know your pain all too well. I'm sorry to say that I can't help but I stopped by your blog so that I can not feel so alone in the matter. I loved reading through your comments and I hope that something triggers in the two of us so that we can find some peace. The last 6 months have been rough for me and I've put on 15 of the 65 that I lost. I'm finding a balance today (starting yesterday) only because I enlisted the help of my children. There is strength in numbers. Let's stick together. emoticon
    1832 days ago
  • _JODI404
    Hang in there, this too shall pass!! emoticon emoticon
    1832 days ago
    Everyone has given you some wonderful advice. All I can add is to believe in yourself and that you are a gift of God. Through him you can do anything! emoticon
    1832 days ago
    it's not what you're eating. It's what's eating you. Binging is often a symptom of not living your truth. What are you really seeking? What do you need to live your authentic life?
    1832 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    In your heart of hearts, what is it you're rebelling against and why? What other ways could you have this rebellion that don't involve Emotional Eating?

    We all have to re-fuel our bodies every day which means we encounter "Food" which we Emotionally Eat.

    Sit down and speak to yourself the way you would someone you loved and forgive yourself. When you're done, put the episode behind you and continue on your way.

    You can do this!

    1832 days ago
    Hang in there. You are definitely not alone.

    We have a whole section about bingeing in the Big Page of Links - maybe some of those resources could be helpful?


    1832 days ago
    So Sorry you've had a rough time with this. I don't have much experience in that area, but I do know that it sucks. I bet you there was one time in that binging two days that you put something to your lips and thought- I can just stop right now and it wouldn't be all lost. But something else (probably the food) overcame that tiny conscious voice.

    Like others said, pick yourself back up. Find out what your triggers are and think really hard on how you can stop them from happening. Either the triggers or your urge to go right to food. Binging doesn't just happen, right? It's fueled by something emotionally or environmentally. You're strong- think it through and it might take some extra diligence the next few weeks to get back on track. And it wont go away forever, this wasn't your last binge I'm sure. But figure out why it's happening- what stops you inside from putting the food down?

    I hope you get back on your feet without any problems- good luck! you can do it, just stay strong with yourself! Respect yourself!
    1832 days ago
  • MISSB8604
    All you can do is the best you can. Try to focus on small things to get yourself back to "normal". You can do it, you're supported.
    1832 days ago
  • OOLALA53
    It goes through stages over the course of a several years. People can go a long time feeling the problems are all over and still relapse. What they do then makes a lot of difference. The urges will usually come back very strong, but if they are resisted, they will quiet down again. Most people don't last long enough to get to the point of binges being infrequent. I think it's because they expect it to get easy too soon. They want the trouble to be over with NOW. That is the exception, not the rule. But it IS worth keeping on. Keep feeding yourself reasonably and resist the urges to overdo,

    I don't mean you have to live in fear with no sense of delight in your eating for years. You will have many good times! But just realize that a few good days, weeks, or months of feeling free is just part of the process. Slipping and getting back up (not easy) is part of it, too. Don't give up because it's hard! The alternative is being at the effect of your body's attachment to food forever, most likely. It's worth a few years of ups and downs to get good at negotiating food. It might not ever get to the point at which you don't have to think about it at all, but it won't always be a burden.

    Part of the process is learning not to let it overshadow the rest of your day. Have your meals and get into the rest of your life, the mundane and the exciting, the happy and the difficult. The more you make that your habit, the better.
    1832 days ago
    Just keep moving and don't give up or in. There is always good days, weeks and years, but keep it moving!!!
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