True Confessions - June 2013 Edition
Monday, June 17, 2013
Well, I wandered waaaay off track in May. I abandoned Weight Watchers and fell back into some of my old emotional eating habits. I'm up 7 pounds from my lowest weight in the past six months. I've been eating some kind of junky food nearly every day.
I'm stressed out about three things.
1. Major health scares for my mother and my sister. They both live on the other side of the country and the only thing I can do to help them cope is phone calls and emails.
2. Our ongoing fertility challenges. New tests have revealed that the odds of us succeeding again are even worse than we thought. This brings up a whole jumble of feelings. Jealousy of others who seem to be popping babies out with no problem. Frustration. Fear. Confusion about assisted reproductive technologies. Wondering how far we'll go to make it happen for us.
3. Our ongoing home renovation. Things are progressing slowly, but surely. However, we are still living in a state of (only slightly organized) chaos. Every day we're moving boxes from one room to another. I seem to be constantly shifting piles of stuff to make room for other stuff. As soon as I get everything organized a new project upsets the plan and everything has to be moved again. It's super frustrating and it needs to change once and for all. I'm not sure how to change it though. I think we'll have to designate one room as the storage room and leave it at that.
I guess there is a #4 on my list. Money. I keep thinking that having a bit more money would help us cope with all of the things I'm worried about. I could visit my family. We could afford IVF. We could pay for a storage unit for some of our stuff until the renos are done. Anyway. That's it. I'm stressed and I've been eating crap to distract myself. Time for a change. Again.
I went grocery shopping on Saturday and I got the ingredients to make four big salads to eat for lunches this week. I also bought a couple of Lean Cuisine pastas (which I swore off several months ago, but desperate times call for desperate measures). We have loads of fruit, popcorn and rice cakes for snacks. Now I just need to get a handle on dinners for the week and I'm all set. Wish me luck!