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True Confessions - June 2013 Edition

Monday, June 17, 2013

Well, I wandered waaaay off track in May. I abandoned Weight Watchers and fell back into some of my old emotional eating habits. I'm up 7 pounds from my lowest weight in the past six months. I've been eating some kind of junky food nearly every day.

I'm stressed out about three things.
1. Major health scares for my mother and my sister. They both live on the other side of the country and the only thing I can do to help them cope is phone calls and emails.
2. Our ongoing fertility challenges. New tests have revealed that the odds of us succeeding again are even worse than we thought. This brings up a whole jumble of feelings. Jealousy of others who seem to be popping babies out with no problem. Frustration. Fear. Confusion about assisted reproductive technologies. Wondering how far we'll go to make it happen for us.
3. Our ongoing home renovation. Things are progressing slowly, but surely. However, we are still living in a state of (only slightly organized) chaos. Every day we're moving boxes from one room to another. I seem to be constantly shifting piles of stuff to make room for other stuff. As soon as I get everything organized a new project upsets the plan and everything has to be moved again. It's super frustrating and it needs to change once and for all. I'm not sure how to change it though. I think we'll have to designate one room as the storage room and leave it at that.

I guess there is a #4 on my list. Money. I keep thinking that having a bit more money would help us cope with all of the things I'm worried about. I could visit my family. We could afford IVF. We could pay for a storage unit for some of our stuff until the renos are done. Anyway. That's it. I'm stressed and I've been eating crap to distract myself. Time for a change. Again.

I went grocery shopping on Saturday and I got the ingredients to make four big salads to eat for lunches this week. I also bought a couple of Lean Cuisine pastas (which I swore off several months ago, but desperate times call for desperate measures). We have loads of fruit, popcorn and rice cakes for snacks. Now I just need to get a handle on dinners for the week and I'm all set. Wish me luck!
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  • RYDERB
    I'm so sorry you've been going through so much all at once. emoticon
    I'm glad you've decided to put yourself back on your list. emoticon
    1854 days ago
  • PATRICIAAK
    Challenges frequently lead to 'quick choices' rather than 'wise choices'. How well I know!
    You are well on the way to being back on track since you've recognized what is going on and owned it. It is inspiring to observy you making the choice to change direction.
    1854 days ago
  • MSMAKEOVER
    emoticon My heart goes out to you. Wishing you the best. You're already on your way to getting back on track. emoticon
    1855 days ago
  • LADY_AGGIE
    Well, you did a great job by doing your grocery shopping and planning for healthier meals! Yay, you! That is so smart. Stress is challenging for each of us, but today is a new day with new choices. You are headed in the right direction. Make it a good one! :)
    1855 days ago
  • OUTWITHABANG
    So sorry to hear about your challenges/stress. I hope things get better for you!
    1855 days ago
  • HELEN_BRU
    You certainly have your share right now. Can be overwhelming too. Try meditation too although Dianewithasmile has some good ideas. We're here for you!
    1855 days ago
  • JUST_BRENDA
    Aww, sorry to hear about your challenges.
    Remember, we all have challenges and we all get through them. With a little planning and a lot of non-food reinforcement, you can get through them gracefully.
    I really like the exercise suggestion --- there's no better way to manage stress!!!
    1855 days ago
  • DIANEWITHASMILE
    Exercise away your stress! Find a nice park and walk! Enjoy the scenery, breathe in the clean air, commune with nature...relax...you cannot change you mother ans sisters health, you will conceive if its meant to be, the renos will get done...money comes and goes...breathe deep and let it go...how does junk food REALLY make you feel? Go for a walk....then if you still want junk food, have some, don't feel guilty, and move on. Good luck! I hope what you wish for comes to be!
    1855 days ago
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