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Here I go:

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Well, I have never written a blog before and to be honest, I haven't contributed to an online community either. I have been a member of Spark People since 2011 but have mostly spent time reading the articles.

So what has changed? I think I have finally come to a point where I have to do something different because what I have been doing isn't working. I am 265 pounds and although this isn't my top weight, it is far beyond where I would like to be. Like so many people, I have tried everything in the book - every diet program out there. The only one that really worked for me was Dr. Bernstein on which I lost 60 pounds. However, as soon as I stopped starving myself on the program, I gained 35 pounds back and ended up with gall bladder problems. Not fun.

So this time I want to slow the weight lose down, think long term and team eating well with exercise. This is a little challenging for me as I have a physical disability - Spina Bifida which limits the amount of physical activity I can do. So I am working with a physiotherapy/trainer 2x per week and am going to focus on "moving" as a first step. Any movement will be a positive change as I have become a couch potato. I spend most of my time outside of work, in my apartment on the coach watching t.v. It is so bad that I am seriously considering suspending my t.v. over the summer so that it forces me to come up with other things to do. This has also meant that I have been isolating myself from other people. The less I interact with others, the more I emotionally eat and the less I want to be around others. It is a awful cycle that I am determined to change.

The change has been instigated by the arrival of my 20th high school reunion (that tells you how old I am). It was a couple weeks ago and caused me months of anxiety. What would people think about me. While I have managed to complete my university degrees (yes I have a Masters as well as an undergraduate) I haven't managed my personal life as well. I am not married, don't have a boyfriend and have no kids and I am morbidly obese. Not much to help build my confidence to enter the reunion and proudly say, here I am. But I went. I wasn't the worst off and I wasn't the best but it made me think about what the last 20 years has been and whether I want the next 20 years to be the same or different.

I am choosing to have the next 20 years be different and today is the first step. So... here I go!
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  • NIKO27
    1767 days ago
    Great first time blog! emoticon emoticon
    Make smaller changes and goals in the beginning so it does not become overwhelming.
    Good Luck! emoticon
    1767 days ago
    Good Luck!
    1767 days ago
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