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Daily Visualization

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Picture five things you want in your life, whether they are people, goals, experiences or things. How will reaching your small goals today help you achieve those dreams, too?

Hmm. 5 things.

I want this body back. I can't believe I was there, and not completely satisfied with it. This was taken about a week or two before I got below 200lbs.

I hate to admit it, but that is the only goal I can see right now. Mostly because it has been so elusive for so long. I'm stuck. I've been stuck for a long time. I am STILL over 230lbs. I can't seem to break that barrier. I know it's all in my mind, but the proof is in the pudding so they say.

I need to make the changes to do this.

I know I'll never get the feeling back from when I finished my first half marathon. But I want to feel the rush. The feeling of accomplishment. Not a feeling that I did just enough to get by.

I have another race booked for Sept 8. Today is a training run for it. I'll hang onto this goal in my mind while I'm out there.

I miss dancing. It breaks my heart every time I think of it. I don't really know how to change this. I'm trying. But I hate to admit it, I'm almost scared to. There is no one to dance with. I will really have to put myself out there to get a group going. I am too shy to approach the bar owners about using the space. Or the local legion. I need to get over it. I need to get over myself. If this matters to me, I need to find a way to do it. It's that simple.

That's all I can think of right now.
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  • FIT4MEIN2013
    I think you have it. a huge number of us are afraid of success. We have learned to hide behind our weight and if the weight is gone????? What if we aren't liked then? What is we can't get the job we want? What if I still don't have a love life? What if I still am not happy?

    Now you have to identify how you can take the risk.

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  • CYND59
    Good idea to write down things you want to work towards. I need to do more writing down my goals and even make a poster of where I have come for and where I want to go. Thanks for the idea.
    1834 days ago
    You've already identified the areas that make you stuck... fear of rejection, fear of failure, lack of self-confidence. What if you actually walked up to the Legion or a bar and made your request? All they could do would be to say "No." And what if they said "Yes!" Try it; you may find yourself on the other side of the argument... I know it sounds glib, but I've been there. Believe me, it's amazing when you "look under the bed for the monster" and find dust bunnies! Take a deep breath and realise that in making this confession to your Sparkbuddies, you have a great army already praying for your success and happiness. You CAN do it! Remember, like it says in the song, "I hope you dance!" JOY emoticon emoticon emoticon
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