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tripped over the dog

Sunday, June 16, 2013

blessings in disguise! Finally I am forced to seek out alternative workouts. I never did those 10 minute 'spot treatments'. The bulk of my spark minutes were in working in the garden or exercising the dog. Now I cant do either for several weeks.

Back in 2000 an old boyfriend once said to me, "I am surprised you didnt yell at the dog" as I was getting stitched in the ER. We had been playing frisbee and there was premature jumping....As per usual, I don't take out pain on my companions as I learned from my parents. As I sat on the floor legs in a modified split, under the dresser I had been carrying, I was silent. I had the thought of blame but instead accepted the responsibility for my own failure to predict. I stepped backward and tripped over a 90 pound buddy.

I think it makes it easier to heal and move forward when I avoid victim thinking and transferring blame. I am grateful for my choices in right speech and thought, and do not begrudge my failures to predict the consequences. I can only take away lessons and emerge stronger! I am so fortunate to have a faithful companion who can be off leash for potty breaks. I only regret he will not have the chance to run for a few weeks next to the bicycle.

I was reading TS Wards blog about quitting her job and remember my thought stream as the nausea passed yesterday post-fall. I was overjoyed to have an out on my pending contract - luckily I hadn't signed one. It was another revelation that it is time to reassess working in skilled nursing centers. It is still unclear to me, whether it is the politics/dysfunction of some places, or the physical toll I place on my body through pace and perhaps lack of experience. I see that a lot of therapists dont want to treat the long term patients, and stick to medA and short term rehab clients. I usually push myself to take up the slack. That is probably good intentioned, but not viable long-term.

That same pick up the slack mentatlity is probably why I injure myself. I push myself too hard, instead of thinking smart. Well this old dog is ready to start predicting, planning and getting ready for her fifties.
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    I tripped over one of the kids in my little pack just before Christmas and broke my hand. I spent a couple of months convalescing after surgery ... Tired, grumpy, unmotivated ... And then, I woke up one morning, looked in the mirror and didn't recognize the girl looking back ... Got active on this site, quit acting like a victim, lost 10 pounds (my goal) as of today ... Am back to my old self ... I am not exactly sure why you have to stop for a few weeks, but take heart: whatever you broke, sprained ... It will heal. This, too, shall pass.
    1769 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/17/2013 8:50:39 AM
    I hate working in skilled nursing centers for some of the same reasons as you. I'm an LNA and feel that everyone should be treated with kindness and dignity. People did not ask to get old or sick or demented. If they are grumpy, they probably have good reason and by the mere fact that they got to be old, they deserve some slack. I always worked very hard to care for everyone and many times found myself picking up the slack. I finally gave up and moved to home care so I prevent people from having to go to nursing homes.
    Please take care of yourself and heal quickly.
    1769 days ago
  • 68ANNE
    Perhaps lack of activity is causing your brain to think more about physical consequences
    1769 days ago
    LTC definitely has its challenges, especially when administrators try to pressure you into putting people on case load/ keeping people on when therapy is not providing a justifiable benefit. No, sorry, I won't commit fraud so that the facility can make more money. Then you have to deal with high productivity. No, sorry, I won't stay after I have clocked out to finish my paperwork to keep my billable productivity at whatever unrealistic number you set. Oh yeah, and I'm not willing to repeatedly use my PTO to keep my benefits when the patient count drops too low for me to work at least 32 hours per week. Arg.

    Good luck with your healing and figuring out the next step!
    1770 days ago
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