I am on spark people early in the am looking for motivation- I am pretty consistently about 300 calories above my limit most days and struggling with the exercise. I have been in this funk for about 3 weeks- Ironically right after I had a loss of 7 pounds at WWs.
I always say life never gives you what you are prepared for and I have been going through that with my young adult sons- nothing horrendous- just things that are a trigger for me and make me feel sad and not in control- which of course I am not. Overall I have just felt kind of blah which has probably been influenced by the rain we had for a week. But there are sometimes lots of little disappointments that add up to a lot of sadness. If I didn't have my clients and my job where I feel like I am doing something worthwhile and valuable- I would probably feel worse.
Anyway I was reading some old blogs and message boards and there was a posting from somebody- who fitness came easier for and she was very critical of her relatives who she perceived as lazy and just not trying to lose weight- and the title was "I just don't get it."
I never usually respond to these things- it was 2 or 3 years old originally but there were responses on there from this year.
How I responded was with the information that for many of us- overeating is an addiction- if you are as old as me- you have probably been deep in it at least 30+ years. I work with MICA patients- people who have mental illness plus an addiction to something-drugs or alcohol etc.
Many of the things we tell them to do to get well are made so much harder with food-
obviously we can't just stop eating, we can't just stop going to the grocery store. Every day at every meal or occasion with food- our resolve is tested. Yes we plan our food, we plan our activity and try to get our brains ready but it is hard- there is never a break.
I have made many changes and have lost 50 pounds- ( which should make me very happy but makes me greedy for more loss.) But when something happens- I am feeling depressed and can't figure it out, the accumulation of many little things or sons who present me with challenges I feel somehow responsible for- my addiction comes to the forefront and says- "I'll make you feel better when you are lonely and sad- just ignore all the sensible things you know- I will calm you down and take care of you"
Is this influenced by other things in my life that aren't so great? of course but so is everyone else in their lives.
So what is my point- who knows- just know that if you are struggling and feel like you are stuck- just try to keep trying- keep coming on, write or read about your feelings- it does help.
Any kind of addiction is a terrible thing- and its hard work to keep it under control but reaching out and trying to help others does help ourselves-we can get better.