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Saturday, June 15, 2013

PROVERBS31JULIA I realized in therapy a week or so ago that a reason why I turned to food for self-medication was because most 8-17 year old kids don't have access to bars and money to buy booze...liquor might be quicker, but candy was dandy, ice cream was on my team, and I could bake a cake without anyone knowing it was just gonna help me get stoned on the sugar and chocolate and caramelized butter!! I could huff it all day and no one knew why.

In the immortal and likely immoral words of Bob Dylan

"We would not be so all alone -
Everybody Must. Get. STONED!"

I could relate to that - even though I never did take drugs, legal or illegal.

It's really weird, reading these articles about how science has figured that food addiction is just as real as drugs, alcohol, etc. I have an acquaintance (not on SP) who is sort of trying to recover from various of her addictions, but I think she is only sober for a few weeks at a time. And here recently I was telling her about my struggles with food, and she suddenly starts telling me she would go do cocaine with me whenever I wanted. I'm thinking whaaaaat? Did she not hear me? (Probably not!) I don't have any desire to try the illegal stuff when I am still messed up with food addictions.

Being addicted to anything is not really good for a person (except for the possible argument of people who switch from drug/alcohol abuse to running or triathalon or similar events - and I am not even qualified to discuss that phenomena. I'd say it was good for them!!).

So anyway I'm still on this journey...

This article talks about being grounded and mentions various typed of events - in my case I'd say most of the time it is "intrusive memories" etc.

I'm tired! Need to go to sleep and focus on this later when rested.
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    You are so smart & I have no doubt that you, too, shall overcome! I love you & have faith in you! Stay blessed!
    1774 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    Food addiction is something we need to gain mastery over because we still need to fuel our bodies.

    I know it is hard work you are doing to explore this issue and I am proud of you for doing the hard work necessary so you can become the healthiest you can be!
    1775 days ago
  • BOPPY_
    Find a program of nutrition and exercise that works for you.

    Define it carefully.
    Plan for it.
    Do it.
    Modify it as required.
    Blog about your successes and failures.
    Use us, the great unwashed masses of other Sparkers and Spark resources for support, guidance, method, etc.
    Keep after it!

    1775 days ago
    I have struggled with food in my life and I never, ever thought about that fact that during childhood it IS only food that we have access to! Never thought of it.

    For sure, and there may be those doubters but I am not . . . food is addicting like any substance. MRI's show that the exact same pleasure centers in the brain that light up when a substance abuser has their chosen substance will light up when a food addicted person sees or tastes sugary, salty, fatty sweets. Sugar and salt ARE addicting! I am a definite believer.

    So, good for you for coming to this conclusion and I can only say from personal experience, it is NOT easy to deal with because we HAVE to eat to sustain ourselves, BUT it does flip that switch to look @ food differently.

    My mentality had to switch from "living to eat" to "eating to live".

    This is an evolving process, so take it a day-at-a-time, a step-at-a-time.

    HUGS and thanks for this thought provoking blog.

    1775 days ago
  • 123ELAINE456
    I hope going through therpy will help You break this addition You have about food. We are here for You. Have You tried Spark Coach? Maybe that would help too. You Can Do It. Take One Step At A Time.This is The WTG!!! God Blessings to You and Everyone. Have a Happy Father's Day. Take Care. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    1775 days ago
  • BOSS61
    Not a Journey. A Caravan. See my Feb 5, 2012 blog (if you forgot). And Welcome Aboard.

    PS - Interesting theory. For me, I don't buy it, but...
    1775 days ago
  • POPSY190
    Yes, food is a difficult one to deal with. Good luck.
    1775 days ago
    Blessings on getting away form the addictions and their roots.
    We all have one issue or another. My family issues sometimes send me into my own mental divide.

    1775 days ago
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