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I need to shed the baby weight

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Here I am again. My daughter (Maria) is now 19 months old, and my son (Marcus) is 3 months old. Things are definitely busy around here!

I'm sad to say that I'm up to my heaviest weight again. Grrr. I suppose having 2 babies in less than 2 years is a bit of an excuse to have some extra pounds on, but I'm ready to get rid of them. I currently weigh 214, and am setting a goal to be at 160 by Marcus' first birthday which is exactly 9 months from now.

His birthday is going to come whether I make changes or not. I keep saying I'll eat better and exercise "as soon as [fill in the blank]". What am I waiting for?? There is NEVER going to be a good time to lose weight. It's going to be a huge challenge no matter when I do it.

Why is it so hard? Does everyone find it this hard? A friend of mine once told me that she became the most healthy and the least obsessed with food when she stopped thinking about it so much and stopped making up a bunch of rules to follow. That sounds great to me in theory, but I'm not sure how to put it into practice.

In 9 months, if I'm the same weight as I am now (or heavier), I'm going to be very disappointed in myself. I will feel unhealthy, tired, unattractive, and uncomfortable. At Marcus' birthday party, I probably won't feel good in the clothes I'm wearing, and I won't want my picture taken, or want to be in any videos. That would be really sad. I want to want to be in them!

Wow... to get to my goal weight by then, I would have to average almost 1.5 lbs per week! Yikes! I can't be wasting any more time.

I keep hoping I'll be able to lose the weight without tracking what I eat or counting calories. I'm slowly coming to the realization that that won't happen. I really don't want to count calories forever, but maybe I'll have to. I heard someone suggest once to count calories until you reach your goal weight. Then stop counting but still eat sensibly and keep getting weighed. If you go 5 lbs over your goal weight, start counting calories again until you get them off. That sounded pretty reasonable to me. (And a good motivation to stay on track because counting calories is very inconvenient to do!)

Last year, I lost 27 pounds in 10 weeks counting calories and using SparkPeople. I know I could do it again. I just have to make up my mind to do it.

My kids deserve to have a healthy Mom.

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  • TOSHIKO120
    Hey lady!
    I know we can do this! I will lose this year dangit! I haven't figured it all out either! I have been up and down all year and I'm so tired of this being so difficult for me. I will be learning some skills to help me more effectively and healthily deal with my emotions, and I'm hoping that will help me mentally prepare to take better care of my physical body! I haven't given up and I know you can do this despite your challenge of two little ones. Congrats on the newest by the way! You HAVE been so blessed! Good luck! Let me know how I can help you along! I'm glad you're still sparking and I know you're going to sizzle with me this summer!
    1772 days ago
    I love your last line. I'm going to add that you deserve a healthier you too!

    I didn't lose any weight until I started counting calories. I think it makes you more aware and you realize how many calories are in foods that you eat often. Sometimes and, most of the time for me, I'm shocked! No way that a teaspoon of sugar in my coffee can add a pound a month!? Yep, it can, small changes now lead to big changes later.

    Now, put one foot in front of the other and take those kiddos for a walk ;)

    Your time is NOW.
    1773 days ago
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