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I think I'm done weighing myself

Thursday, June 13, 2013

I have an unhealthy obsession with the scale. I can't even tell you how many times I have woken up feeling GOOD; lean, fit, strong, only to step on the scale and be totally crushed by the number not backing me up. But I think I have finally realized today that IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I WEIGH, despite the fact that every doctor's appointment starts with a weigh-in and BMI charts are everywhere, constantly proclaiming everyone to be fat or obese using the most RIDICULOUS formula ever, never mind muscle mass, athletic ability, etc.

The bottom line is I know many people who weigh next to nothing but have little to no muscle tone, and could not even run 1 mile even if their life depended on it. If I looked like this:

would I care if the scale said 180???? NO! Of course not. The number really means nothing. I think that is why even when I DID get down to goal, I didn't fully appreciate it. Yes, I was smaller. Yes, I wore a smaller size, but I still felt like I had so much more improvement needed: stomach, arms, legs... I mean that's like most of my body.

So now, I am going to focus on how I feel. Period. When i have a great workout day, like yesterday, and I can FEEL the results of that NOW, why should it matter what the scale says? Why should I let it have the power to send me into a funk where i criticize myself and give in to feelings of despair? It's silly, really.

I know this: When I eat clean and good, I lose the bloating and feel STRONGER and leaner. Yesterday was a good day: tons of water, a little higher on the fruit side but that's just because it was Grocery Day Eve emoticon and that's what I had on hand. But i didn't mindlessly snack. I didn't eat processed food, no grains or gluten and I ROCKED it out for two classes (we brought it pretty hardcore for the 2nd class last night. Hello sweat!)

I'm going to run again tomorrow morning, and will go this Sunday as well. I'd like to try for 5 miles on Sun. I will be alone this weekend, so eating will be on track for sure. Will develop my solid ST plan this weekend too and work on that. Only reason I haven't is because i've been doing so many squats, lunges, and upper body work already this week in toning and Sentao that i'm a bit sore as is. Been doing more planks, push ups, and that was part of my ST plan, so I'm kinda-sorta putting that into action already. I know the 2.5 weights used in toning aren't doing a lot on the muscle building front, but they DO make a difference.

Anywho, that's all I know for today. Have a half day tomorrow so I can go get my passport in order. emoticon

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    I see what you mean. I just started fitting into a size 10 pants. So excited!!
    However, The last time I fit into a size 10, I was 30 pounds thinner.
    Go figure.
    1801 days ago
    I haven't been able to read your blogs this week until now. It is really sounding like gluten is the main problem for you. I'm so glad that you are finding yummy recipes! We can eliminate something if needed but only if there are delicious things that we can have to replace them, because then we are in that denying mode that is so miserable. I'm so happy for you that you are getting to that confident place where the scale number really doesn't mean anything. You are so right, the scale number is a guide only, nothing to get upset about. Feel good about yourself, you are doing very, very well!!!
    1802 days ago
    Number can be manipulated.
    Go with how you feel. And how you live your life.
    1803 days ago
    If you feel great about yourself, the number on the scale shouldn't even come into play! I mean, there are so many more worthy methods of assessing progress (taking body measurements for one, progress pictures are one of my favorites!)

    I once took a whole month off the scale, only to return to the scale the exact same weight I left it at!
    emoticon So if you already know what you need to do, just focus your energy on that, and forget about the number! Focus on the feeling and if you are on the right track, the answer will always be "WOOO HOOO, I feel GREAT!"
    1803 days ago
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    Good for you! The scale can be a horrible thing. For me it can be both helpful and hurtful. There was a time when I obsessed and weighed myself like everyday. Then I realized that it was just silly. Keep pushing!

    1803 days ago
    You got it - pitch the scale! That damn little machine could make or break my day. How I felt was driven by the number on the scale that morning. No one could see that number but me. People would say I was looking better, but if that number didn't confirm it, I didn't believe it. It was never the RIGHT number!

    I now weigh once a month. I got a fitbit. I chart my food intake. I am now obsessed by two numbers I have complete control over. The results - a calmer, serene me.

    You are doing all the right things. Don't let that little box who hangs out with the toilet tell you how to feel!

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