Thursday, June 13, 2013
I've been trying to up my running game lately. Part of my motivation is that I've noticed the hip hop and zumba classes are not serving me as well. I'm not sweating as hard, not reaching target heart rate, etc. Of course, if I modified my movements I could probably hit my goals, but the classes have become increasingly crowded over the summer! There's as not much room anymore. I know when fall comes around and both my daughter and I are back in school, our schedules may not permit the trips to the Y as often. There's nothing quicker and easier to fit into one's schedule than simply going out for a run. I have to do it. I have been at this crossroads before and I know I have to push through all the doubts and pain to just frickin' run! I have to bust out of my wogging comfort zone and work HARDER. I would love to someday be able to run a mile straight without stopping to walk. That seems inconceivable to me now!
I came across this on Pinterest and it made me laugh:
I know that after a run I always feel such a sense of pride and well being. It's getting to that point,"after" a run, that is the challenge. I know it's good for me and the most effective exercise for me, but taking that first step out the door and the first step from a walk to run that can be so difficult. It's hard. Running is hard. And, as they say, the difficulty is more of a mental challenge. The "I suck", "I hurt", and "I can't" demons completely rage during running.
Tuesday I really pushed myself for the first time in a long long while. I HURT yesterday. Enough of a hurt to take it easy. I only logged 25 mins of exercise yesterday and it felt as though I might as well have laid about on the couch. I didn't get my normal fix of workout high. My right knee and back were screaming though. I knew that if I pushed it yesterday, pushing it via running today would be an impossibility. I have to do this. This is a very firm goal that I set for myself when I started back with Spark in April. I MUST run. I suck at it, I struggle with it, I am weak willed when it comes to it. I HAVE to change and I have a firm deadline for that change. The time is NOW.
You guys might hear me whine a lot as I go through this. I'm hoping that after a couple of months, I'll be past this hump. I want to start doing 5Ks again in the fall and ultimately would like to move up to 10K and half marathons by next year! It's going to take serious dedication. I tell myself that I know I can do it, even though there are still little niggling doubts in the back of my mind. I think the real issue is how swiftly and gracefully it will be done!
Have a great day, everyone!