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Very Sad and Difficult Day

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Don't know if you have heard about the Black Forest Fire in Colorado. Well, we are about a half a mile from the evacuation area. My heart is full of such conflicting feelings. I was able to go help my friend of 20 years pack up her house. Listening to the fire department scanners, we heard that they are holding their home. But then, I heard that other friends have lost everything. They were out of town. So, they didn't get anything out of the house. Then I feel guilty and selfish when I feel so happy and relieved that the wind has changed direction saving us, ultimately, taking others.

I was out with my friend whose home is in the main battle ground...the one that they are working so hard to hold. Anyway, sorry to ramble. She was feeling weak. So I twisted her arm to get something to eat. We went to McD. I thought I was doing good and only got a cheeseburger and we split a small fry. But then the soda....the stupid soda. I got a large and refilled it. Then I was unsatisfied so I ended up coming home and in a couple hours I ate the lunch I had scheduled.

So I am happy for one friend. Then I am very sad for the other. I am happy our house seems to be safe, but sad that I messed up with my diet. I know that is stupid but, the thing is whatever stressful situation that comes up, I have to be able to be strong and stay the course.

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    We are in Louisville, just outside of Boulder and far from the danger of the fire, but my heart bleeds for you, and for everyone around you.

    I hope you are safe today and that the situation around you continues to improve as it did yesterday.

    Love you fellow Coloradan
    1775 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    hugs. emoticon
    1777 days ago
    It's so hard to stay the course with so much stress around you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your friends.
    1777 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear about these devastating Colorado fires and hope you'll stay safe, along with your friends. Gee...please don't be so rough on yourself, though. You're under tremendous stress! I'll be glad when the fires are under control and put out..
    1777 days ago
    Im sorry you are having such a stressful time. It sounds as though you are having a normal human response. Remember your goal will be reached by continuing in your lifelong healthy lifestyle. One bad meal doesn't ruin that. Blessings for renewed motivation.
    1777 days ago
    I hate fire season, and it's getting to be a season all its' own. I'd put the bad food up to the stress of the fire and just move on. do better tomorrow.
    1777 days ago
    Keep Safe, Stay strong. Like everyone is saying, your plate is piled high with stress right now. Nice work helping your friends, self preservation is a natural feeling. Large fires or any Disaster sucks because of the unpredictable nature of the beast. When you make it out the other side of one of these calamity's be thankful. emoticon
    1778 days ago
    The extra soda & food is nothing to fret about you will be back on track There is a lot of stress in your life right now. You will pull through no matter what happens. You said you are feeling guilty because the fire turned in another direction, that is what any human being would feel, it is not like wishing it on someone else. Do not beat yourself up, you were there to console & be a comfort to your friend. Praying for everyone involved in this devastating disaster.
    1778 days ago
  • JOHGLO2011
    Don't feel bad, tomorrow is another day and that must be so stressful to live in that area. We have family in Colorado Springs, but I can't imagine being so close to the fires. Just get back on track tomorrow. :) Praying for you all!
    1778 days ago
    Watching the fire I have several friends in the area. So sorry to have found out that one of my favorite stores was a total loss. Hoping and praying for fast containment. I hope you are safe and your friends too. emoticon emoticon
    1778 days ago
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