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Really disappointed in myself

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Well today at WI I am up 3.6 lbs. I know I should have expected it after uncontrollable eating but boy was it a shocker. Its really making me sad. I feel like I have failed and let my team down.

You really cannot work out and eat what you want. You really do have to do both.

My eating has gotten out of control since the grad party. My family also sent some food home. Well last night I got sick of all the junk laying around my house from the party. I tossed the bars and next will be the cake. And maybe the veggie pasta salad because I cant eat any more of it. Had too much of it the last 4 days.

Sleep deprivation doesnt help either. And it really irritates me that my family cannot help me out so I can get sleep. I told DH this morning that I am so tired from this 2 month streak of not being able to sleep through the night, here is what he said to me "Ya well I need my sleep"!! Are you kidding me!!!! He goes to bed when I leave for work so no one is home while he sleeps and he sleeps 6 hours straight. Plus on the weekends I let him sleep until he wakes (usually around 2pm). He needs his sleep??!!! Ohh that made me mad. Just had to vent about that.

I am seeing this as a wake up call. I am going to work my hardest this week and the rest of the 12 weeks to lose all the weight I planned on losing. I am going to rededicate myself. Tonight when I get home I will start my C25k. NExt week I will also force myself to get up at 4 am to work out. My trainer gives me 20 minute work outs now so there is no reason I cannot do that before work. Its just 3 mornings a week. I can do that. emoticon
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  • FUNGIRL81005
    I know you can do this!!! How are you doing now? What are your GOALS??? DO IT!! emoticon
    1834 days ago
  • PRIZM96
    I agree with KRISTY927, don't be too hard on yourself!
    You did not let ANYONE down, least of all your team! We are here for the duration of 12 weeks, we're all going to experience some not-so-great weigh ins. The positive thing, is you re-evaluated what you need to do and re-dedicated yourself to your goals.

    You got this, Girl! As far as the sleep situation..... I pray you get some peace and good restful sleep soon. Husbands....... they just don't get it! GRRRR!

    1835 days ago
  • KRISTY927
    keep pushing! dont be too hard on yourself... take things one day at a time. its a daily sometimes hourly struggle for me i try not to think too far ahead. take baby steps.every day is a new day to try again! lots of luck emoticon
    1835 days ago
  • SNS1968
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    1835 days ago
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