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i don't know how much I weigh . . . and I kinda don't care

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

I haven't stepped on a scale in weeks and while I should be pretty concerned with how close I am to Onederland, I am no longer consumed about it. I would definitely love to be under 200 lbs. On the flip side, the past few days I have begun to notice changes in my body that I had not noticed before. I have noticed my clothes fitting differently. I have noticed that I don't eat as clean as I used to but I also notice that I am naturally cutting myself off when I am satisfied. This morning Derrell and i took my mother to breakfast and I ordered exactly what I wanted: a ham and cheese omelet (requested half the amount of ham and cheese), cup and a half of coffee and cream, breakfast potatoes with ketchup, 3 silver dollar pancakes and a side of bacon. I ate less than 1/3 the omelet, a slice and a half of bacon, all of my pancakes and potatoes. I didn't feel guilty at all. Because of that i bypassed lunch and just had the bag of airplane peanuts and pretzels as a snack. The hotel gave me a cookie which was a waste of 400 calories but now I am required to put in an hour workout in the hotel gym. I am going to research where the best place for dinner is without completely ruining the day. Considering yesterday I finished the day with nearly a 1000 calorie deficit from working my PT job, I am not too worried. Did I mention I am in Colorado this week?

I also don't care about the scale right now because I honestly go out of my way to move my body. When I workout, I try to push myself to my limit. When I go to work, I skip the elevator 98% of the time which equates to a lot of steps (I office on the 3rd floor and park in either the basement or first floor). I would also walk to a person's cube or office than send an email. And when I walk, I walk hard and fast. I have noticed my tummy is coming down a bit; I try to concentrate on my abs when exercising.

So I think this is becoming natural to me. It only took a year! I am trying to find ways to challenge myself. Last summer there was this huge, monster of a man who would train athletes at the stadium my sister and I would workout at. A year ago I thought to myself that one day I would be strong enough to get through his bootcamps. Well the other day, a friend of mine who is a womens pro fitness competitor posted a picture with the same guy. I commented on the pic about seeing that same guy and being deathly afraid of his workouts. Amanda tells me that I should join his bootcamps. I immediately said, "Hell no!" I am not strong enough to push 250 lb tires down a football field. But there is a little, teeny, weeny, tiny part of me that wants me to try it at least once. I will have to pray on it. In other news, I am registered to run my first 10k in two weeks. I have WALKED 6.2 miles but never run or jogged it so I am excited to see how i do. It is a virtual race so there will be less pressure. But my sister will be there to document my run with pics and timers.

Well you all have a successful week!
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    Hey there...sorry I've been a bit MIA I'm not completely back up to par after a bout of bronchitis. Had to come on over and check out my Shero and you as always never disappoint me. Your blogs ALWAYS inspire me. So happy to hear you're doing well on your journey. I wish I had read this yesterday I probably would have went to the gym after 7:30 instead of considering it a day wasted. Well keep up the awesome work, I'm going to catch up on your blogs
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    1830 days ago
    I'm so glad that the "right choices" are part of your life and not something random. You are doing great! Well done!!!
    1831 days ago
    Love your attitude and how you are more focused on "moving your body" than what the scale says! I know if you can do it with the crazy schedule you have... then it is possible!

    1831 days ago
  • GR8TAWK-N-2-U
    I realized a long time ago that the scale was not my friend (LOL) I do exactly what your are doing now, I do not deprive myself, I indulge, but since being on this site, I have learned limit myself. Thanks for sharing.
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    Super blog!
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  • LIZ324_NYC
    emoticon emoticon I say go for it and sign up for the bootcamp!
    1832 days ago
    About a month ago, I stopped stressing over calories in and calories out. Now, if I want ice cream, I will have a scoop. If I want a cheeseburger...I'll have it for dinner instead of being strict with myself and saying that I can't have it...then eat a healthy dinner and then later decided I need the burger anyways. I may indulge a little more than in the past, but I come out ahead than when I would be strict and then later binge. We are human and as long as you are mindful of what you are eating, there is no reason to stress and beat yourself up over FOOD. There is so many more important things to stress about!!
    1832 days ago
    Why not go ahead and sign up for one boot camp? Even if he typically requires package deals, he may let you do one if you explain how you feel about it to him.

    You are a much better runner than I am, and I finished a 10K. You can too!
    1832 days ago
    You are emoticon !!!
    Go for it! There's no mountain too high for you to climb!
    1832 days ago
    Can I just say, I flippin adore you?! Focusing on the actions, and how we feel is the most rewarding part. Of course Onederland is a huge milestone and you will want to know so you can celebrate it, but not being consumed by it is the best part! I am right there with you although I do know what I weigh. BUT I get on the scale and I don't actually really care what it says, which is the first time I can say that in years. I am feeling better and happier than I have in a long time and that is the reward. You are in the sweet spot, where you are feeling good, looking good, and the scale is just a tool that you don't need to be bothered with on a regular basis and that is awesome! emoticon emoticon
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  • SUGAR0814
    Sign up for the bootcamp!! You know you want to!!! emoticon
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    Good luck with your 10K !!!
    1832 days ago
  • SPARKLE1908
    I get on the scale but I don't obsess over the number...I just look and keep it seem to know what the balance is for you and that is all that matters... emoticon

    Good luck with your 10K!!!!
    1832 days ago
    My scale's batteries died on Friday. I'm in no big rush to replace them. I'm with you. My body feels great and I'm on and poppin at the gym. Good luck with the race. You should consider doing the training. I bet you'd do better than you think.
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  • ANGGEL40
    You should give bootcamp a try..we will never know what we can do unless we try..Good Luck with your 10k emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1833 days ago
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