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Shock and tears

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

I am enormously proud of the 12 pounds I have taken off. My clothes feel better, my knees hurt less, and I no longer get heartburn. I even like what I see in the mirror a little more now.

This weekend I went to a baby shower. I ate reasonably well. I over did it a bit on lunch, but I went really light on dinner because I just wasn't that hungry. On Monday I saw some of the pictures.

I nearly burst into tears. I didn't recognize myself. The woman in the picture was so much bigger than the woman I see in the mirror. I still don't know how that can be. I know the camera adds at least 10 pounds because it's taking a 3D image and making it 2D, but this was way beyond what I expected to see.

Honestly, my self-esteem is a little deflated. I've been offered cookies and candy at work, and there was even one time ice cream could have been in the picture. I thought of the woman in the picture and decided I didn't want them. It's just too hard to look at her, and I can't encourage her to stay where she is. I want her to look like how I feel.

It's been a rough few days since this, and the weather isn't helping either. blech.
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    As I have been thru the same thing recently I know exactly what you are saying. I am proud of you for using this as motivation to just say no to any high cal. foods. I hope you stay strong, and remember we are right there with you.
    1799 days ago
  • MARYANN2323
    Don't let those photos get you down, Kelly. You've done a remarkable job, so far, and I know you will continue to do so. It won't be long before the girl in the photo looks as good as you feel.
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    1807 days ago
    There is nothing worse than finally seeing a difference in the mirror only to have something take the wind out of your sails. I know you don't know me but if I may offer some advice...??
    Focus on what you know. You've lost 12 pounds. You're cloths fit better. You're knees feel better. Your heartburn is gone.
    These are all facts! You have to hold on to these real things to get you over the stuff that tried to mentally defeat you. I have been exactly where are and it stinks. But you will get where you want to be as long as you focus on the positive stuff and work towards your goal. Good luck!
    1807 days ago
    You are doing great. Don't be so hard on yourself.
    1807 days ago
    emoticon emoticon You & I have lost the same amount! And don't you even give those pictures another thought! You are on your way! TWELVE POUNDS LESS! Celebrate YOU! You are just like all the success stories we read on blogs and message boards! They were where we are now and all they did was........kept going! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1807 days ago
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