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Weight Gain & Suicide

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Until yesterday, it hadn't really dawned on me before that I eat as a way to keep from thinking about killing myself. WOW! Interesting to see that I've been using food as a tool to stay safe - very skewed & counter-productive.

By February I had gotten down to 243 lbs (from 315 in 2011). But when I weighed in @ the doctor's office yesterday, I was @ 267 on her scale (260 on mine). +24 lbs in just 4 months is what made me realize that I was depressed - the weight gain vs actually being in touch w/ my emotions was my indicator. GOOD GRIEF!

Today I'll make an appointment to get back into counseling & see if I can get this turned around.
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    Isnt it amazing when we realize what it is that causes us to eat! Its like a giant light bulb went off emoticon ! I am so proud of you for facing your demons and understanding what your trials are. Great job on getting back into counseling and I will keep you in my prayers. You are beautiful and I can tell have a truly wonderful personality, never give up! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2167 days ago
    Many thanks for your kind thoughts, words, & concern! I didn't even realize that this depression was creeping up on me. Clearly I'm extremely out of touch w/ my emotions! I just phoned for a therapy appointment - ONWARD!

    I hope that others who use food to keep from feeling or thinking about things that are upsetting them will chime in...
    2167 days ago
    So glad your seeking help! We want you to stay around!!
    2167 days ago
    emoticon Glad that you came to the realization and are able/ready to seek help. Take care of you!
    2167 days ago
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