I know I know I know.....

You know, I know. I know better. I know not to drink four glasses of wine with dinner. I know not to have the little pretzels and snackies for happy hour. Why? Why then do I keep doing the same old thing over and over again and if I do, why do I punish myself after?
I know that the only thing that would make me truly happy is to take care of my body. Watching my sugars, watching my carbs, going to the gym and drinking more water. I knew this stuff from wayyyyy back when. But like many I loose focus.
I am realizing more that if I dont take care of me, I will never be happy and no one can make me happy. That job belongs to me. I mean sure, you can make me happy but truly long term, that is up to me.
The key is to make me a priority. I never did this before. Relationships, kids, work all come first and to tell you the truth the thought of taking care of myself bores me and yet if I dont I am miserable. Today I know what I know and I wil make myself come first even though it sounds weird to do so.