Stress Monster- NOM NOM NOM.....
Sunday, June 09, 2013
This month has hit me hard- and unfortunately not in a good way
(What is worse, we are only 9 days in!)
I just found out recently that I will be going back into the classroom next year- YAY!!! However, I still have that 2 page to-do list to finish before the year is out, plus I am now feeling guilty that I may be "screwing" over a good friend and colleague with a job she doesn't want. I also feel guilty about being selfish about what I want for myself for once... So this is making me reflect and just feel a little lousy- I am not one for being selfish often and most times I am stretching and doing more than I should- but it is for others, not for me.
I have traveled again to PA to help my parents begin their first move westward to AZ. I definitely walked a lot and moved a lot of boxes and furniture- but likewise I didn't measure or eat anything that was spectacularly good for me. It was also emotional- because this was one of the houses/ churches that I felt very connected with and a part of. So needless to say I am sad about this whole ordeal- esp. my mommy and daddy moving so far away from me now
I am dealing with boxes and things piling up in my house and then stress of having to pack up the multiple rooms that currently house my belongings at school. I need to clean up and have my house look normal again- but I am instead spending the time either working on my to-do list from school OR being ready for bed/ a brain break from life/ work.
I am fighting with the desire to take a vacation with my hubby- to doing trainings or sitting at home (b/c he doesn't want to travel this summer- or at least that is the impression I have.) I feel like most of my friends are light-years away and I don't get to see them face to face.
I really want to begin a massive purge/ yard sale sweep this summer and get rid of things that are just taking up space.
I need to keep up my working out- but I am so tired that I have not gotten into as much as I should!
The stress monster is eating me from the inside and outside- most people aren't seeing what is happening on one side or the other of me.... apparently I am good at hiding pieces. But I just needed to get it out- and maybe that will shrink this little monster to being a nibbler not a muncher!