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Stress Monster- NOM NOM NOM.....

Sunday, June 09, 2013

This month has hit me hard- and unfortunately not in a good way emoticon (What is worse, we are only 9 days in!)

I just found out recently that I will be going back into the classroom next year- YAY!!! However, I still have that 2 page to-do list to finish before the year is out, plus I am now feeling guilty that I may be "screwing" over a good friend and colleague with a job she doesn't want. I also feel guilty about being selfish about what I want for myself for once... So this is making me reflect and just feel a little lousy- I am not one for being selfish often and most times I am stretching and doing more than I should- but it is for others, not for me.

I have traveled again to PA to help my parents begin their first move westward to AZ. I definitely walked a lot and moved a lot of boxes and furniture- but likewise I didn't measure or eat anything that was spectacularly good for me. It was also emotional- because this was one of the houses/ churches that I felt very connected with and a part of. So needless to say I am sad about this whole ordeal- esp. my mommy and daddy moving so far away from me now emoticon

I am dealing with boxes and things piling up in my house and then stress of having to pack up the multiple rooms that currently house my belongings at school. I need to clean up and have my house look normal again- but I am instead spending the time either working on my to-do list from school OR being ready for bed/ a brain break from life/ work.

I am fighting with the desire to take a vacation with my hubby- to doing trainings or sitting at home (b/c he doesn't want to travel this summer- or at least that is the impression I have.) I feel like most of my friends are light-years away and I don't get to see them face to face.

I really want to begin a massive purge/ yard sale sweep this summer and get rid of things that are just taking up space.

I need to keep up my working out- but I am so tired that I have not gotten into as much as I should!

The stress monster is eating me from the inside and outside- most people aren't seeing what is happening on one side or the other of me.... apparently I am good at hiding pieces. But I just needed to get it out- and maybe that will shrink this little monster to being a nibbler not a muncher!
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  • PINKNFITCARLA
    emoticon You sure have a lot going on!
    1833 days ago
  • NANCYPAT1
    It is not selfish for you to want things for yourself especially if you are ENTITLED to them by merit and/or seniority. I use a made-up word to describe what it really is - SELFING - taking care of yourself is NOT a negative, it is a POSITIVE and proactive thing to do. It is amazing how emotional it can be when our parents move from OUR HOME (the one of part or all of our childhood) and move away - even when we haven't lived there for years. It is part of life but does bring up all kinds of emotions and the sense we have to let go of something that was an anchor. Years ago when my parents moved from the place I grew up, I bawled like a baby - even though it had been alost 20 years since I had LIVED there.

    Take time to take care of YOU and acknowledge that it is a tough time for you - and treat YOU gently.
    1834 days ago
  • PATSYB7
    I agree with Merrymary42--put yourself first by walking/meditating and eating well. Also, break that to-do list into manageable chunks. Choose three things to accomplish each day and do them. Cross them off and feel fabulous! Good luck.
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    1834 days ago
  • MERRYMARY42
    sounds like your plate is full, but busy hands keep the devil at bay, and it sure helps the stress, go for a walk and meditate
    1834 days ago
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