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"Edible Emotions" the good, the bad, and the sad

Sunday, June 09, 2013

I just spent the last half hour writing a detailed blog of how I had begun to do a lot of emotional eating once again, and all the reasons I thought this was happening to me. Then I hit a wrong key by mistake and the whole thing went into cyber space. It's probably on another planet
by now and has everyone in tears on Mars or somewhere!! emoticon Oh well! It was very cathartic and I feel so much better anyway! emoticon
So the gist of it in a nutshell, was that this month is the birthday of my late daughter, the 17th anniversary of when she passed away, and also my birthday. We have no fathers to celebrate, so we'll just have to have a real big Sushi party on my birthday to make up for it! emoticon Yum, I feel better already! and I got really good news yesterday. My late daughter's only child, my granddaughter, wants to get together in July. It's been 9 years since I've seen her and this is answered prayer, so to God be the glory! emoticon So there you have it. every time I write a blog I feel so much better, and right now I have no hunger at all.
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  • JILL313
    I am so sorry for your DD loss. That has to have been so painful and I know she's in your "heart". thoughts and prayers. . .I'm so happy soon you'll be able to reconnect with your GD and give her some Grandmother unconditional Love. I'll be praying for you and your family. . .God is watching over you and it's a Blessing to have a GD to share your life with and love.

    Hugs & Love,

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    1806 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/10/2013 8:26:05 AM
    I am so glad you have a granddaughter to see very soon and don't forget your daughter is waiting for you as the best is yet to come.

    Yes, it is hard to give up eating food to calm the savage beast of out of control emotions of grief and grieving and sadness and wanting that special person back just for a moment...but soon you will see her as the best is yet to come.

    I have had to also fight that savage beast of gluttony over grief and grieving and have finally learned how to give all of these useless emotions over to Jesus because He cares for me so much and does not want me drowning my sorrows in food any more but drown them in Him because He truly does give beauty for ashes.

    He heals all hearts and wounded souls and raw emotions just so long as they are given to Him and not taken back to have a pity party with is what I have discovered in this journey of losing weight.

    When my special loved one passed over I kept driving and eating like a lunatic because of not being able to handle all the grief and sorrow and didn't even realize what I was doing until I had gained one hundred pounds.

    Then it took me another four years to finally learn to give it all to Jesus because His grace can handle all of the grief, sadness and sorrow so much better then I was able to.

    I don't even know if this special loved person in my life had Jesus as their Savior and Lord and He has even healed me of that worry and anxiety to do with this other person's salvation.

    There is nothing I can do about this special person's eternal home and I know according to the word of God once I get to heaven He will erase all tears and sadness over this person if they did not make it to heaven.

    Just know Jesus does care and can handle all of these things in this life that we cannot change so much better then we can.

    He understands so much more then we ever can and knows each of us so much more then we ever can. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1807 days ago
    Patty, I'm so sorry that you had to endure the pain of losing a child. Thank the Good Lord I've never had to go through that! I'm sure it is a pain that never goes away. But, I'm so happy to hear that you are going to see your granddaughter after all this time, I hope you have a wonderful visit. Take care and know my thoughts and prayers are with you at this time! Hugs!!!
    P.S. Enjoy your Sushi party. Sounds like a plan!!
    1807 days ago
    I have family members who have gone home to the Lord and my friends so very young.

    So I feel for your emotions your feeling for sure.

    It is wonderful that you can get this time with your Granddaughter .

    That will be a beautiful reunion.

    The Lord knows all the details of your life and what is needed in your life right now.

    Our loved ones you could say have now been carried by Angels till you see them again.

    What a glory, glory day that will be.


    1807 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear that you lost a dear daughter. That must be the hardest thing in the whole world to have a child go before their parents. I hope you have a wonderful birthday and get re-united with your grand daughter. Blessing to you.
    1807 days ago
    Patty and Jeannie - I too know the pain that comes with the loss of a precious child (regardless that Mike was 36) - mine was 7 and a half years ago and he was my YOUNGER son. Let's talk about CLOSURE here - WHEN DOES THAT COME??????. I also understand the emotional eating involved around certain dates. My nephew has been gone for 22 years and his loss hasn't diminished and doesn't hurt any less either.

    What a blessing to have a granddaughter to reconnect with. I think you are blessed beyond words to have that connection to your daughter. I have no grandchildren and so feel the loss even more when I see my sisters with their grandchildren and now my one sister even has one great-granddaughter and another on the way.

    Sorry I got a little long here - (HUGS) this whole topic is a sensitive one for me too.

    Hang on and celebrate the reconnection and allow the good memories in and the sadness to run its course - I still have friends who tell me that KNOW they could not survive if they lost one of their children - Like we had a CHOICE about it.
    1807 days ago
    First, my sympathy to you on the loss of your DD. It has been 19 years this spring since we lost our eldest son, so I know the pain is still there, believe me. Those who talk about "closure" don't have a clue!! LOL!! Secondly, congrats on hearing from your GD!! That is awesome and I know you will be thrilled beyond words to see her again. Best to you, Patty! Hugs, Jeannie emoticon
    1807 days ago
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