HOW many restarts do we give ourselves before we GIVE UP!!!
Saturday, June 08, 2013
Am going the wrong direction so fast these days, I don't know if there is any hope for me!! I didn't work out much in May, so I said, "JUNE! I will make it the priority in June! I even got a late night workout in on the 1st so I could say I started the month right. That night i fell trying to return a ktten dumped on us to his nightime cage in the cat barn, failingly grabbing for anything , I pulled a wicked muscle in my right arm. Also had to shop for an rearragne my mom's room in my house, movig the queen sized bed out and getting a twin so we can get a better selection of bureau's and sets of drawers , etc, in there for her. She is now not liking the twin but we are going to make it as nice as possible and see if we can do it. Unfortunagely that means arranging to take the queen bed to store at my mothers unused house and it is hard to move.
I could have worked out yesterday but I had taken an adderall and determined this would be the time I got my closet space sorted.. It's a big walk in , so I commandeered a large wood shelving unit from the 'dog room' (which used to serve as an office) my big closet is now looking great....and the rest of the house looks as though it has been ransacked! Like I FEEL
This Wheat belly thing isn't helping me. It's no wheat but meats, cheese, fruits and veggies are all ok. As a vegetarian, That leaves me with mostly cheese and nuts for protien....and it doesn't take much to convince me to eat cheese!! I am ADDICTED to it and stay away from it as much as possible. However just today I woke up feeling SO bloated and gross. some size 14 jeANS I was about to take to goodwill, fit again when I tried them on. My gut seems massive and I'm having elmination problems-in every way- Will probably see a dr. Monday to sort some stuff out. Wondering if my kidneys maybe failing or if I have kidney stones or something.
A memorial service for my mom's sister is next weekend. out of town family pouring in , all who have been hearing about my extreme weight loss from others in the family.......and with the bloat I don't look good in general. I GOTTA get this effort back off the ground...and quick.
I few days of fasting myabe in order and some longer yoga sessions.
Just not feeling good about myself , ya know. I picked up a flashy handbag I'd' bought online and loved, but I don't feel worthy of carrying it right now..silly, huh? Well, anyway.. Jus t a quick hello and I PRAY I can find my way back to where I need to be. I am also reading the new Dan Brown book "Inferno" and that is keeping me at it every spare minute. I asked hubs if he could read it to me while I exercised, but he declined...hahah