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HOW many restarts do we give ourselves before we GIVE UP!!!

Saturday, June 08, 2013

Am going the wrong direction so fast these days, I don't know if there is any hope for me!! I didn't work out much in May, so I said, "JUNE! I will make it the priority in June! I even got a late night workout in on the 1st so I could say I started the month right. That night i fell trying to return a ktten dumped on us to his nightime cage in the cat barn, failingly grabbing for anything , I pulled a wicked muscle in my right arm. Also had to shop for an rearragne my mom's room in my house, movig the queen sized bed out and getting a twin so we can get a better selection of bureau's and sets of drawers , etc, in there for her. She is now not liking the twin but we are going to make it as nice as possible and see if we can do it. Unfortunagely that means arranging to take the queen bed to store at my mothers unused house and it is hard to move.

I could have worked out yesterday but I had taken an adderall and determined this would be the time I got my closet space sorted.. It's a big walk in , so I commandeered a large wood shelving unit from the 'dog room' (which used to serve as an office) my big closet is now looking great....and the rest of the house looks as though it has been ransacked! Like I FEEL

This Wheat belly thing isn't helping me. It's no wheat but meats, cheese, fruits and veggies are all ok. As a vegetarian, That leaves me with mostly cheese and nuts for protien....and it doesn't take much to convince me to eat cheese!! I am ADDICTED to it and stay away from it as much as possible. However just today I woke up feeling SO bloated and gross. some size 14 jeANS I was about to take to goodwill, fit again when I tried them on. My gut seems massive and I'm having elmination problems-in every way- Will probably see a dr. Monday to sort some stuff out. Wondering if my kidneys maybe failing or if I have kidney stones or something.

A memorial service for my mom's sister is next weekend. out of town family pouring in , all who have been hearing about my extreme weight loss from others in the family.......and with the bloat I don't look good in general. I GOTTA get this effort back off the ground...and quick.
I few days of fasting myabe in order and some longer yoga sessions.

Just not feeling good about myself , ya know. I picked up a flashy handbag I'd' bought online and loved, but I don't feel worthy of carrying it right now..silly, huh? Well, anyway.. Jus t a quick hello and I PRAY I can find my way back to where I need to be. I am also reading the new Dan Brown book "Inferno" and that is keeping me at it every spare minute. I asked hubs if he could read it to me while I exercised, but he declined...hahah
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    Infinity because you (we) are worth it!!!!
    2072 days ago
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    2113 days ago
    Hang in there. Don't be surprised if you find the culprit to be cheese. Ton of sodium and not the best choice of calorie for our bodies. emoticon You are smart and strong. You'll find your way back to where you want to be.
    2113 days ago
    Question: How many restarts do you give yourself?
    Answer: As many as it takes.

    YOU are worth the effort, through the easy times and the tough times. You're worth fighting for. I also am skipping anything with flour in it, and I know, cheese and nuts make tasty snacks, but the portion size is incredibly tiny, and not filling. I find if I don't have plenty of pre-made salad, veggie sticks and fruit on hand, I turn to the cheese and nuts for a snack, and that turns the scale but fast in the bad direction. So I can relate.

    Why don't you stop over to Camp Accountability for some encouragement? Go to http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/
    ard=5508x10900x24005541, we've just re-opened camp for the summer, and are working together to ease into a better life, one baby step at a time.

    I can hear the frustration in your post. We're here to support you. Do you have ways to recharge yourself, to counter-act the frustration? Things that recharge your energy and your spirit as well as your body? Things that you can feel good about, even when the scale isn't cooperating? What do you enjoy doing?
    2114 days ago
    Never give up on yourself. Its hard to regain momentum once you loose your footing. It can happen though my day at a time one meal at a time..... emoticon
    2114 days ago
    I agree it's hard to get enough protein as a vegetarian without wheat!
    You may like quinoa - it's the grain with the highest protein - and I myself like beans: garbanzo, black, pinto, etc...
    sounds like you are a very capable, caring, and energetic woman! carry that handbag proudly!
    2114 days ago
    Nothing is over until you stop trying!

    Keep your head up!

    2114 days ago
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