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Emotional Eater--Who me?

Friday, June 07, 2013

I am an absolute mess today. It is the last day of school. I am all set to see the kids go knowing that most will be back in August. I have tried to get myself ready to say good bye to a second grade teacher, my friend who is retiring. My music teacher is taking a year off to finish her doctorate--is she really going to come back? When I opened an email from one of my Kindergarten teachers to learn that her unemployed husband had found a job in Texas, it was all over. When I am not crying, I am eating. The only time the tears stop is when I am eating. I don't handle change well--I know that. I usally talk to myself and prepare for any change coming my way. I wasn't able to prepare for this and I am not doing so good right now. Most of the faculty and staff have never seen me unhappy or out of control and some of them look scared when they walk pass my office. I am so ready for this day to be over so I can go home. I called my second grade teacher friend when I learned of the Kindergrten teacher's departure on July 1st. She has always been a sounding board--I can rant and its confidential. She told me not to come down to her room because she couldn't handle anymore "good byes" today. I was already crying so that I couldn't even pretend that I was calling for something else.

Needless to say at some point I questioned why I was eating, what I was eating and took a minute to think about it, blog about it (while still crying). My best quess is that somehow the food has a calming effect and I am reaching for it because I don't want to be completely out of control. It makes sense and yet it doesn't, basically substituting one type of control or lack of control for another. I wonder why it seems more acceptable to eat than cry? Has it always been this way? I just want the day to be over with so that I can go home.
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    I am an emotional eater too. I hate it because I know that stuffing my face with food is not going to solve the problem. We can do this.
    1779 days ago
  • LV_MOM1
    See another side - you are strong and in control. Your friend is being rewarded for all of her hard work & will have more "friend" time - she will always be your sounding board. Your music teacher shows dedication to one's self - wow proud of her, what a role model. Your kindergarten teacher shows genuine support for her husband, so one can really admire her qualities as a person. You have surrounded yourself with great women, who are taking a different path. Change may be hard but it also can be good at the same time. Showing emotion is not a weakness, it's about being human. Cheers to change, my "new friend". emoticon
    1780 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/11/2013 1:40:10 AM
    1780 days ago
  • KACAR51
    I am so sorry you are having such an awful day! I hope that things will get better soon!
    Here, maybe this will make you laugh! It is pouring down rain today. I had an appointment that I couldn't cancel and I had to travel on my scooter in the rain! I had a BIG golf umbrella and I was staying pretty dry, until...
    a bus went by and I was hit by a TIDAL WAVE! Picture it! Woman on scooter with big polkadot umbrella dripping wet! Not a pretty sight! Oh well, it's only water after all! Hope you have a laugh and a better day!
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    1783 days ago
    emoticon Please know that you are not alone. emoticon
    1783 days ago
    That is why people are so emotional when they loose weight, those tears and emotions you would not let yourself feel that you ate away are still there. It's okay to cry, let it out and let it go. emoticon
    1783 days ago
  • CAROL494
    A lot of us have experienced emotional eating. It will pass. Take care.
    1783 days ago
    I am sorry that you are feeling so sad but tomorrow will be another day and you will try to get control of your eating. Hugs to you.
    1783 days ago
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