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Celebrating Thinking Small Big Time

Wednesday, June 05, 2013

In August 2012 I posted this blog. Some may recall, but likely most won't remember. As a matter of fact I had almost forgotten until this morning when my memory jogged while looking for something to wear in my closet.So here is August' blog revisited.

Dreaming Big--Thinking Small

Today while shopping I had a moment when I was dreaming large. I was trying on some smaller sizes looking for a few pieces which fit. Overly optimistic, dreaming large, I pulled a size 14 capri off the rack, thinking small. What was I thinking? Tried it on anyways and of course it didn't fit. But then in that few split seconds I thought why not? For $6.50 it would be an investment in my future because in that moment I believed that by next summer I could be into those capris. But why? The realist in me battled with that large dream and doubted that it would be possible. The dream battled back and won. I know it's very possible to be into those capris next spring. So keeping the dream large and thinking small I went to the cash register with capris in hand confident that I will be wearing those capris. The challenge is on. Just for you to realize how big this dream is I haven't ever worn a size fourteen since junior high. Will keep you posted in the spring.

(June 2013 update)
Well summer is almost upon us and I got up this morning needing to find something in the closet that fit and was weather appropriate. There they were the size 14 capris. I was tempted to pass them over because most certainly they wouldn't fit. You see, I still struggle with the fact that I don't have to shop in the plus size shops and department anymore. However, I decided I'd try them on just to motivate me to get into them for later this season. Imagine my surprise emoticon when I could close the button. And well here is a photo of me sporting those very capris.

(With apologies for the orientation but I've just spent too much time trying to figure out how to rotate with it being taken on my ipod)

I'm wearing those capris today, yes all day, but to say I always believed I would be wearing them some day would not be truthful. It wasn't that easy. I'd looked at those capris throughout the winter months and thought to myself, "What was I thinking when I bought those?" I'd even tried them on a few times and just couldn't imagine that I'd ever dare let myself dream that I'd fit into those size 14s. I had times when the scale went up and I was convinced I'd been far too optimistic because I believed I'd never get into those capris ever.

I believe the key to getting into these size 14 capris today for me was to keep looking forward with positivity. I couldn't let the bump in the road, the mistake of a day or more of bad food choices hold me back by dwelling on the set backs. I needed to keep focussing on my belief that the lifestyle change is for me, is worth it, and I'm worth it even though I make poor and wrong choices along the way. I am determined not to let those type of choices bring me down, give me permission to beat myself up, and cripple me from moving forward. Each time I need to take back the control because I know I'm capable.

So I keep the dream large while thinking small. What's your dream? You may not dare to dream. You may not have dreamed in a long time. But you're worth a dream. So find your dream and start moving towards it today!

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    emoticon Sweet Victory !! You look great Maria !! Great story - Hugs K
    1793 days ago
    Maria, I am so glad I took the time to stop by Your Blog today. Today was weigh in for the first week of summer BLC and I was so glad my weigh in was a little lower than my starting weigh-in today. I have not been able to get under my posted weigh in for a few weeks and I have not let that get me down really. But I Have been tossing around in my mind where I am today from where I was last summer and how powerful a summer it was. I am frustrated that I cannot get past this toe injury to get out and strut this weight off. My summer is so different because of this and I have been fighting inner turmoil's as to how to handle the slow pace I have to be in for now. I like the slowing down, it is good for me internally but I also find it difficult to not just break the reins on me and go full speed ahead and damn the problems in doing that. My dreams are so close so close and I hate being out here on the outskirts of that town and seeing the lights but not being able to take the Hiway to get there, instead just the back roads that are slow and bumpy and have many detours. But I see you and we have been on some similar roads in our journey and you being in that Wonderful 14 gives me hope to hold on and keep on the road even if it is not the road I would choose. I celebrate your "14" because I remember the bumps and rough road you have traveled to get there and I know you earned every inch of it, every celebratory moment of it. And honestly I see some of those small changes in me and have to say to myself, you are almost there don't give up just push on. Thank you for the encouragement from your wonderful and sometimes frustrating but oh so rewarding journey!!
    1799 days ago
    $6.50 was definitely worth the NSV you received today! emoticon
    1813 days ago
  • LADYJ6942
    Woo hoo and congrats. That is an anwesome none scale victory (NSV).

    Keep on pushing.
    1813 days ago
    emoticon That's so emoticon emoticon
    1813 days ago
    I love this blog! You did great! Actually, the capris look big on you! ... Size 12 is in sight!!
    1813 days ago
    Looking great! Well done on sticking to the journey, even when the road was rocky.
    1813 days ago
    You are BEAUTIFUL, Maria!!! You're doing AWESOME!!!!! I do that sometimes! I'll get something on sale that is a size too small for me and get it anyway. I have a very pretty skirt and jacket that was 2 sizes too small that has been hanging up, waiting for the day I can wear it! I've had it for over a year and I still can't fit in it....BUT I WILL!!! I am not giving up and I will persevere!!! SO WILL YOU!!!! This is so awesome that you did this!!! I call it, INCENTIVE and MOTIVATION!!!
    (By the way, my wedding evening gown is a size 14, it's been FOREVER since I've been able to wear a 14!)

    1813 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/5/2013 10:16:08 PM
  • RONI122
    How bad you want it girl? You went after it! You got it! Nice job!
    1813 days ago
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    1813 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I am so proud of you!!!!!!!
    1813 days ago
    emoticon emoticon You DID IT!!
    1813 days ago
  • JACKIE542
    Really great, way to go , you do look great. Your dream came true. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1813 days ago
    You GO Girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1813 days ago
  • FABAT402009
    emoticon So glad you invested in yourself and accomplished a dream. How awesome you pushed forward and made things happen! Keep up the great work.
    1813 days ago
    emoticon good stuff
    1813 days ago
    Absolutely AWESOME!!! Congrats.
    1813 days ago
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