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A Whisper, a Song and a Smile

Tuesday, June 04, 2013

Thank you Pam (JUST2OFUS) - I will often thing of Wayne in this way...being as close as a whisper, a smile, and a song.

April 5th, Wayne headed to Tucson, Arizona for some warm sunny days - away from the Minnesota Winter. He was staying with a guy that had the same interests of viewing the night sky and taking Astro-photography. The morning of April 11th, Wayne died - unexpectedly, in his sleep.

Who knew that the quiet, shy person I met 36 years ago...would win my heart over so quickly.

In those early years, we frequented a restaurant that had a theatrical organ and they played a song that quickly grew to be our favorite. I still think of it as "our song"... Toccata & Fugue in D minor - by Sebastian Bach (here is one rendition) - we always referred to it as Taco's & Fudge...

There are many other songs that I continue to play today - many of Wayne's favorites that continue to put a smile on my face, reminding me of many memories we shared. Memories that continue to bring a smile on my face just thinking of him.

One afternoon, about a week after Wayne's death, I was trying to get a nap in before dinner. I felt him climb into bed behind me, he whispered that he loved me, engulfing me with a hug and I quietly slipped into slumber.

I miss my best friend SO much....but the other day I was reminded by a thought I came across. Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars, you have to let go in order to move forward.

I'm trying...but this is SO hard for me. He leaves a huge hole in my life and moving forward seems so scary.

Then yesterday I took a baby step forward - I called a realtor, told him I was wheel chair bound and what I needed to "move forward". I NEED to get out of Assisted Living - they do nothing for me except make me crankier every day! lol

I need to re-find that positive person inside and get back to LIVING......

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    Praying you find the new house soon my dear emoticon
    2060 days ago
    So glad that you are moving forward. Some days will be easier than others. Wayne will be with you forever...just a memory of something he said or did will set off a memory and he is right there with you...in mind, heart and spirit. No one can take your memories away!!! They and Wayne are with you always.
    Blessings, prayers, love and hugs,
    2081 days ago
    Annie. there is a place for you to dream again. Hope it is soon. You make a difference to us but you deserve a difference outside too.
    2084 days ago
    Sending good thoughts your way Annie. Sure hope you find a place. I do know of a house already handicap/wheel chair friendly. Also, south GA does not have snow or freezing winters. ((HUGS))
    2086 days ago
    Oh Annie,

    I know where you are ...I felt this way 8 years ago when Frank died. I bought a new house too in order to move forward. I know there are many different reasons that you're doing this. I know you can take this giant step forward.

    Music is a great healer. It still brings memories flooding up to the surface.

    Wayne will always be there with you. I'm here if you ever want to chat.
    2086 days ago
    I am so proud of you Annie. Moving forward is exactly what Wayne would want you to do. You are in my prayers.
    2086 days ago
    Annie, Wayne will never really be gone from you. Just his physical body is gone, his spirit remains.

    Hope the realtor can find what you need & want quickly.

    Just remember, we're here to do whatever we can ^ we love you.

    2086 days ago
    I hope that realtor can find you the perfect house to start this new chapter of your life.


    Bev Anne

    2087 days ago
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