Giving myself credit. Do I deserve it?
Tuesday, June 04, 2013
This is very hard to write. I am not kind to myself. If you were to lose ONLY 0.5 pounds, I would say "it is HALF a pound. It isn't a gain." If you gained 1 pound, I would say "it isn't 2 pounds. Next week will be better." I would celebrate and go
But for me, I put myself down. I am much harder on myself than anyone else. I berate myself. I see the glass as half full for everyone else. For me, the glass is half empty. I am never pleased with what I accomplish. This is true for weight loss, being a mother, a wife and/or a teacher. If I have housework to do, I will make a list. If there are 15 things on the list at the beginning of the day and at the end I have done 10 things, I will put myself down for not completing those last 5 items. I don't know how to celebrate my successes.
This leads to severe depression. It isn't good. I never take me time because I never finish what is on my lists. There is always more to do! I know that I should take some time for me but how can I when I have these assignments due?
Although making a smaller list might work, I know that in my head the list is bigger. What can I do? Any suggestions are welcome.