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Looking for support & feedback from anyone that has been where I am at now!!

Tuesday, June 04, 2013

Hello bloggers-
I have officially fell off the wagon & I am afraid I am falling apart. I need all the help & support I can get!!
I started this journey almost a year ago this June. How sad that I am where I am now...
I had lost 40 pounds.. I have now gained back 5-7 lbs of that, depending on the day.
I was doing great, committed to my workouts every day. Didn't miss a one & always made the time to get it in. My mind was right where it needed to be, I was in control.
We went on a family vac in March & I relaxed some. I didn't work out & I ate what I wanted. After we got home I had some major personal issues happen in my life that only made it harder to jump back on. I would love to go into them more but I don't think a blog is the place to do that.. However if anyone has gone thru some issues that derailed your progress & was able to pick up the pieces & battle on, I would love a friend to be able to talk to. I really think that would help me a lot too. Some of the specifics are what I need to talk about & figure out how to ge thru them.
I am very athletic. I have one or two 5ks a month. One 10k coming up, a MudRun this weekend. And a 1/2 in the fall. I am also starting to train for our local Triatholon next summer. So, it's not that I just want to sit... Its more around my daily exercise & diet. I am struggling with getting up early every morning. I can't get my mind in the right spot. I snooze right thru it & then feel terrible all day. I have been ok about making them up in the evening.. But that's not where I need to be. I don't have time for evening work outs, I have to do them in the am. It is the only free time I have & I feel great starting out my day after a WO. I just CAN'T seem to get my body/mind to cooperate. I am BORED with my workouts too...
My diet has also kind of fallen apart. I've returned to some bad habits. Instead of the 80/20 I was following its probably closer to 70/30.. I am a grazer.. I had total control over all of that! I knew when I was hungry & when I wasn't.. I overpowered it & won! Now I am struggling with it again. :(
Basically, I have lost control. I HATE IT!!! I know I am supposed to just start fresh but I am struggling. Any tips or suggestions? Any one that wants to be a buddy that has been there & picked up the pieces & got back on? I have no support people in my life. My husband doesn't understand & my few friends I have time for are too competitive. Any weakness they find in me will be their tool to better themselves. I have no one... I could cry but no one will listen so what's the point?
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  • CAMAEL100
    It seems to happen to me every time I relax my schedule for a few days. I find it very hard to get back on track. What helps me is reading Spark blogs and threads until I get back on track again. Sometimes I am reading them and not feeling like it and then something clicks! The worst thing to do would be to give up!

    Maybe give yourself a break here - 7 lbs up is not bad! Remind yourself that you still have lost over 30lbs and that is amazing. Try to remind yourself to get back on track before you put on any more!
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    1844 days ago
    We've almost all been right there with you. My husband and I took a cruise and I did very well with exercise, but by the end of the cruise I was not watching my food intake nearly as well. Didn't help having a husband who says "I want you to enjoy yourself". When we got back home, I didn't get right back with SparkPeople and before you know it, I was 7 pounds above my SparkPeople goal.

    Once I got back on SparkPeople, I got back with the program and am back in my weight goal range. When I got back to my goal this time, I started getting on the scale daily (rather than weekly when I was trying to get my weight back down). For me that seems to work. Rather than obsessing about the scale, it keeps me focused and if I do have a day of less healthy choices, my weight doesn't get a chance to take off on me.

    Remember that you don't have no one anymore. We are all here for you. Hang in there and take it one step, one day at a time. We are all cheering for you!

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    1845 days ago
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