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the joy of Non Scale Victories!

Sunday, June 02, 2013

When I started this weight loss journey in January- I was sick of being "SICK AND TIRED' as they say in the addiction field.
I could not get from the house to the garage without being winded- (a very short distance but slightly up hill), I could not go shopping anywhere without a cart and by the time I reached the checkout at the grocery store I was covered with sweat- my back would hurt-

Anywhere we went as a family- I would wanted to be dropped off- in my car I used my mother's handicapped sticker so I could use handicapped parking. There were countless humiliating times when I was working that I could not keep up with people walking from place to place.
One night I was on call and had to go to an ER to see a little boy in crisis and I had to park maybe 1/10th mile from hospital and walk all over the hospital to the right dept- I was so out of shape- I had to stop numerous times to rest and would be out of breath by the time I got there- so embarrassing! Then there was the time I took my dad to drs office and there was literally no chair I could fit in. (I carry at least 70% of my weight from the waist down.)

My younger son was embarrassed by me- my older son was worried about me- I was so embarrassed and humiliated by myself but couldn't seem to change.

When I started in January- I just wanted to feel better and 5 months later I feel so different I can hardly believe it.
Today was a big milestone for me- my family went out to a racino place with a buffet for my mother-in-law's birthday. We parked probably 5 or 6 double rows back- I got out of the car and walked to the building- all of a sudden I'm thinking to myself- "look at you walking- you are actually ahead of the rest of the family"- we walked in and had to go up some stairs- about two flight worth and then walked more into the right section of the restaurant. Now my left knee is not great so I do need to use railing but I was not winded- I was not sweating!

I was very excited and kept telling my sons- "can you believe it?" tonight I walked home from my mom's - just a couple blocks but last time I bothered my back hurt and I was tired.

As I said before- I am 70% butt and no boobs but I had old bras I had bought years ago that were supposed to re-arrange what you had to look a lot better. I can fit in them now! As long as I am dressed it looks pretty good.

I have lost 55 pounds, I am still a little over 300 and have lots more to go but I am feeling so positive. I have achieved the biggest wish I had which was not to be humiliated during "normal activities" These NSVs have totally given me a new lease on wanting to move and eat healthy and keep it up. This weekend I was around a lot of delicious foods but stuck with my fruits, veggies, salad, shrimp, fish and I feel good- the rich fattening food was not really calling my name. I felt satisfied that I could eat my more filling food- which took a longer time and was much more satisfying than a small dense fatty food that took a minute or two to eat.

And I have to thank you all my spark friends- your advice, support and stories keep me going.
To me its like an online AA meeting for food addiction that has been what I was missing before and what is helping me succeed. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    WOW! I sat here smiling as I read this, I could just feel your pride and your happiness over what you've accomplished. I'm so proud of you! Look at you go! Congratulations on your success so far and thanks for sharing your journey! WOOHOO!
    1778 days ago
    Awesome! You have come so far. You should be very proud. Keep up the good work. emoticon
    1784 days ago
    HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! I love the line: "[SP is] like an online AA meeting for food addiction that has been what I was missing before and what is helping me succeed..."

    I'm glad you see the little changes that make your journey worth the effort! Hugs my friend!
    1784 days ago
    What a great blog! I am so happy for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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