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Missing Mom

Sunday, June 02, 2013

This morning I was having a really tough time, missing my mother so much. I woke up thinking about her today. Some days it's just so hard to believe that she is no longer here. I can't just pick up the phone and call her anymore. There are just some days where it really hits me so hard! I decided to go for a walk because sometimes that helps. As I was walking early this morning I could really feel Mom's spirit with me though. This pretty little robin kept appearing during my walk. It would hop along in the grass a short distance away as I was walking, only to fly off and then reappear to hop along with me again. It was almost as if Mom was saying....I'm not here in my earthly body any longer but my spirit is still with you and you will see me and feel me if you look carefully with your heart.

After my walk, I was looking through my mom's Bible. It is such a treasure full of all these beautiful glimpses into my mom's heart! It is filled with personal notes from Mom, Bible verses that were special to her, prayer lists, cards, devotional tracts, etc. The first thing that caught my attention today was this little paper called "This Thing Is From Me..." by Laura A. Barter Snow.

This part really spoke to me personally....Are you passing through a night of sorrow? This thing is from Me. I am the "Man of Sorrows, and acquainted with grief." I have let earthly comforters fail you, that, by turning to Me, you may obtain everlasting consolation (II Thessalonians 2:16,17).

I'm so grateful that God picked the perfect mother for me. Mom was my rock and sometimes I feel so lost without her now. She was always the person I turned to when I needed comfort or encouragement and I was given such a gift to have this special lady in my life. But the message I received today was that I need to let God be my comforter. I need to turn my eyes to Him and trust and depend on Him instead of on Mom.

Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD himself, is the Rock eternal. Isaiah 26:4

This Thing Is from Me by Laura A. Barter Snow

My child, I have a message for you today; let me whisper it in your ear, that it may gild with glory any storm clouds which may arise, and smooth the rough places upon which you may have to tread. It is short, only five words, but let them sink into your innermost soul; use them as a pillow upon which to rest your weary head: “This thing is from Me.”

Have you ever thought of it, that all that concerns you concerns Me too? “For whoever touches you touches the apple of Mine eye.” (Zechariah 2:8). And “You are very precious in My sight” (Isaiah 43:4).

I would have you learn when temptations assail you and the enemy comes in like a flood that “This things is from Me,” that your weakness needs My might, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you.

Are you in difficult circumstances, surrounded by people who do not understand you? Who never consult your taste? Who put you in the background? “This things is from Me.” I am the God of circumstances. You did not come to this place by accident; it is the very place God meant fr you. Have you not asked to be made humble? See then, I have placed you in the very school where this lesson is taught. Your surroundings and companions are only working out My will.

Are you in money difficulties? Is it hard to make both ends meet? “This thing is from Me,” for I am your provider and would have you draw from and depend upon Me. “My God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:19). I would have you prove My promises.

Are you passing through a night of sorrow? This thing is from Me.” Am the the “Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief.” I have let earthly comforters fail you. Turn to Me so that you may receive everlasting consolation.

Has some friend disappointed you? One to whom you opned your heart? “This thing is from Me.” I have allowed this disappointment to come that you may learn that I am your best friend. I want to be the One you confide in.

Has someone repeated things about you that are note true? “This thing is from Me.” Leave them to Me and draw closer to Me. “The salvation of the righteous comes from the Lord; He is their stronghold in time of trouble” (Psalm 37:39).

Have your plans been upset? “This thing is from Me.” You made your plans and then asked Me to bless them; but I would have you let Me plan for you. “‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future’” (Jeremiah 29:11).

Have you longed to do some great work for Me and instead have been laid aside on a bed of pain and weakness? “This thing is ifrom Me.” I want to teach you some of My deepest lessons. “They also serve who only stand and wait.” Some of my greatest workers are those shut out from active service that they may learn to wield the weapon of all prayer.

Are you suddenly called upon to occupy a difficult and responsible position? “This thing is from Me.: Trust Me. “Those who wait on the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint” (Isaiah 40:31).
This day I place in your heands this pot of holy oil; make use of it freely, My child. Let every circumstance that would crush you, every word that pains you, every revelation of your own weakness be anointed with it. The sting will go as you learn to see Me in all things.
“ will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them” (Isaiah 42:16).
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    thank you so much for sharing your gifts from your Mom. I too think of my Mom passed Dec 10 1994, still missing her every day. Time will heal the pain but the loss continues.
    We used to share little cassette instead of letters, my sons would tell my parents what they did in school that day and then my parents would record their days back to us, I am so fortunate to still have 3 of them. It's a joy to hear both my parents and my sons as youngsters.
    Blessings and healing to you...
    1712 days ago
    Hugs and prayers sent....My mom's passing was August 11th ...18 yrs ago. Time has flown by and like you I miss hearing her voice but treasure her memory also. I love your walk with the robin close by.Great story you chose to share.... emoticon
    1713 days ago
    {{{Hugs}}} you are always in my prayers, Bonnie. How wonderful you have your Mom's Bible. It is so precious & I am sure it will comfort you. emoticon emoticon
    1782 days ago
  • BEC_55
    I have not been around SP since last week. My mother passed away also. I want you to know how much your blog meant to me.
    HUGS Friend!
    1782 days ago
  • KITT52
    I understand..even after 10 years I still think of my Mom each and everyday....
    I try to remember the good times and feel blessed that I had those days to remember for ever....
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    1784 days ago
    My prayers are with you, Bonnie. I understand the emotions you're going through.
    1784 days ago
    Oh thanks for sharing Bonnie! I can't imagine the loss you are feeling. What a comfort to know that God is there for you and He will comfort you and hold you up. Hugs my friend!
    1784 days ago
  • M77355
    Thank you for another wonderful posting. emoticon
    1784 days ago
    Hugs my friend! I am so sorry that you are missing your dear mom so much! I am so glad that God blessed you with such a beautiful woman for a are a beautiful reflection of her! I pray you will find comfort and peace in time. I love the piece you picked and shared. Thank you. Hugs!!!
    1784 days ago
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