My dearest self, Ruby,
It's been a long time since we've REALLY had a nice chat. Well actually, I've been talking, but I almost feel as though you have been purposely ignoring me. I know we've had our differences, but I must confess that your ignoring me has really been causing me an enormous amount of distress. You seem to hear the words, but they go in one ear and out the other, so to speak. You are not digesting them.
What happened, Ruby? We were doing so well, and I know you were pretty excited for a while as you were becoming healthier, but all of a sudden you disappeared. Your old friends "old" friends, chips, potato sticks and mostly cheese twists, manged to get your attention and worked their way back into your life. They have convinced you that "tomorrow is another day" and you can always get back with ME "tomorrow". They have managed to dominate your life once again.
Ruby, I am so very disappointed. I miss all of those good times we spent together going for walks on the bike path, doing cardio and doing strength training, as well as dancing around the house. Remember when we'd go to Hampton Beach and walk from one end to the other, IN THE WATER, just so we'd get more resistance? We were doing that every single day after work. But once the colder weather started to set in and the beach was no longer viable, that's when your "Old" friends saw their opportunity to lead you astray and they've been hanging on ever since.
Have you REALLY noticed, how your old friends have been able to convince you that it's okay to sit in front of the boob tube when you get home after work,? You've allowed them to constantly reach out to you, afterall, you had another tough day so you deserve to vegge out and do absolutely nothing, at least for an hour or so, which then drags into 3, 4, 5 hours until it's time to go to bed. They've been able to convince you that your are tired and that by sitting doing nothing, you'll be resting and getting your zapped strength renewed. And to make matters worse they call out to you to join them in an unhealthy snack of some sort all the while you sit in front of the TV watching shows that you previously taped.
Do you remember what our daughter, Amy-Jean said when we first started getting healthy and going for walks all the time? She said, "It's great to see you getting into these things, Mom. I'm so very proud of you, and be honest, don't you feel better now that you're not sitting in front of the TV with your old friends, cheese twists & potato sticks?" You couldn't help but say, "Most definitely and I love it. I can't believe that I wasn't doing this before".
Ruby, I loved, and now miss, when we used to fix a wonderful salad for lunch, and sometimes chicken and loads of vegetables for dinner. I miss the times we'd sit and track on Spark People what we ate, and all the exercising we did. You have to admit, you were having fun. Don't you miss it, even a little bit? Is there anyway I can talk you into working on our relationship. I know that you love me, and always have, but I need more than just words, I need you to prove to me, by your actions, that you REALLY do love me.
I know there are alot of people who say that it's okay to have a cheat day, but Honey, you and I both know that it doesn't work for you. I know that you never mean to have more than one day of junk food and no exercising, but as soon as you let your old friends back into your life, BANG, that's the end of it. They ALWAYS end up staying for a LONG time. They tend to move in for days, weeks, months, and I've even known them to stay for over a year or two, and sadly you allow it. Believe me when I say, they are NOT looking out for our best interest.
Ruby, PLEASE, I am begging you to not let our relationship flounder any longer. PLEASE, open up and listen to me, I can help you. PLEASE don't continue to shut me out. Love me again as you use to. Maybe it will help you if you post "Before" and "After" pictures of us so we can keep it in the foreground of how things were when you had all those old friends in your life and then how you looked and were beginning to feel after our relationship started getting closer.
Well, Ruby, I do hope that I've been able to give you food for thought, and that you will keep this letter handy to use as a reference. You know I only want what is best for you, for both of us. I hope that my words will help you find your way back to my loving arms. You, Ruby, are a sweet, loving, giving person and now it's time to starting giving to US once again. You always tell people you are "FANTASTIC" whenever they ask, well now it's time to really live up to that and get our life back in the right direction.
I love you, Ruby, more than you realize, and I shall NEVER ever give up on us.
PLEASE TAKE ME BACK - TOGETHER WE CAN DO THIS...WE REALLY CAN!
All my love, ALWAYS,