Friday, May 31, 2013
Tomorrow is my first 5k. I'm walking a 5k color run in Kansas City with some girlfriends. It's about 4 hours away from us so we're all leaving work early and heading up this afternoon. I've wanted to do one ever since I first heard about the color runs. And have a goal of one day running in one.
I've so excited, about the walk and about the girl time, but at the same time I'm so very terrified about doing the 5k. I've tried to talk to my girlfriends about it but they really don't get it. They are all basically in shape and don't think walking a 5k is a big deal at all. My stomach is a mass of nerves and the closer we get the worse it gets. I've never done a walk like this and don't think I've even walked this distance outside; or if I have it was a long time ago. I know I can do it on the treadmill. Except for when I had to take the month off for my surgery I've been doing my treadmill walks with an incline of 1% so that it's more like walking outside.
I'm a worry wart anyway and no matter how much I tell myself not to worry about things I still do. I'm sure that is making this worse and that I'm making it more in my head then it needs to be..but telling myself that isn't helping..although I keep telling myself not to worry :)
I have set two goals; first one is to finish. One of my fears is that I won't be able to finish; another is that I'll collapse or something like that and need help up and that they'll have to get a crowd to help me up. I seriously doubt that second one will happen but I can't seem to get rid of the worry about that. Anyway, my second goal is to finish in under an hour. Not sure if I will make this one but it would be nice. And if I don't then that'll be my goal for the next one!
I'm really thinking (and hoping) that finishing this will make me feel good about myself and give me some much needed confidence! And help me to see that the weight I've lost and the workouts I've been doing as paying off. Logically I know they are but it's not evident physically yet and it would be nice to feel a sense of accomplishment.
I don't know why I waited so long to write this blog because even though I'm still worried, as usual, I feel better after getting it all out and knowing there will be people that understand my feelings. Thanks for listening to me ramble! :D Will post an update after the walk!