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About to give up

Thursday, May 30, 2013

I am tweny years old (twenty one this year). I'm 1.67m tall and weigh 77kg. This is over 10kg more than I weighed 2 years ago and the thouhgt that I've gained so much weight repulses me. The truth is, I don't eat very much (especially as far as portions sizes are concerned, I eat as much as my 10 year old little sister). I think that the combinsaion of the long hours of my degree and the corresponding lack of excercise contributed to the problem. I am also finding that I am a nervous eater with spikes around exam times and I snack at night out of habit. I can admit to these weaknesses.
The problem comes in here: last year I joined a gym and went religiously almost daily (4-5 times a week) for 6 months! I'd switch from joggimg, running, cycling elliptical and rowing (doing about two of these for 20min each at a workout). I would find that on the Monday (after a weekend of not going) I had gained up to 3kg. This cycle, that was becoming increasingly destructive for my self-esteem, went on and by the time the 6months were through i had a net loss of 0.5kg! This regimen was being suported by my cutting down on the horrible food at residence and limited snacking. I have never felt worse about myself in my ENTIRE LIFE than at that period an i was "healthy". I had become fit but had lost neither centimetres/inches/pants size nor weight. from that point on I effectively shunned gym and continued eatin propretly for 6 months and maintained that weight.

This year, I am mow cooking my (much healthier) own meals, go to gym about otwice a month, snack incessantly and have gained 1kg. You can imagine that, despite my current wieht and the inactivity bothering me somewhat, I am much happier. I REALLY want to lose weight and become fit and healthy again but I am struggling to get into a routine and battling the snacking monster.

I found spark people by accident and signed up. the constant reminders annoy me beacsue they remind me of what I'm not doing but when I do get around to reading the stories, I am astounded and inspired. Please healthy people, I need advice, a plan and a support system!

Palesa 11 (it means flower)
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  • PALESA11
    Thank you all so much =)
    Will keep you posted emoticon
    1848 days ago
    Hallo PALESA!
    To make Spark work for you, you have to track your nutrition and your fitness activities. Studies have shown that 80% of successful sparkers do that. And connect to the community here. Get some healthy Spark recipies, plan, and get some workouts to complement the cardio you have been doing.
    The good news is that at 21- you will drop the weight very quickly and get very fit quickly. (I wish I had the dedication I have now, when I was 21)
    Now GO for it, and be the best you, you can be.
    Best wishes, and keep blogging so we will know how you are doing!
    Hang in there!
    1850 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/31/2013 1:05:04 PM
    1851 days ago
  • PALESA11
    Thanks Laura, you're awesome! emoticon
    1851 days ago
    Every time you do something good for YOU it is a Victory, you reached a new goal!
    Do not over think what the scale says. It should not tell you how you feel about you and your body. We do sometimes rely on what the scale says and not what our bodies tell us.
    You said you felt good before, but the weight gain was a problem. Remember, muscle is heavier than fat. That really bothered me, until a Spark Friend kicked me in the backside and asked me how I felt about ME and not what the scale said. emoticon
    emoticon Take it one day or even just one minute at a time!
    You are worth taking care of!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

    Laura emoticon

    1851 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/30/2013 11:37:18 AM
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