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Wednesday, May 29, 2013

About three weeks ago, I was inspired to start working out.. again. emoticon
I suppose a background is an order. I have always been very over obsessive about everything I do. It goes in cycles you see, I suppose to some people it would look as though I had never ending fazes. It can be anything, painting, eating, not eating, binge eating, exercising, reading, ect.. you name it. I have never been able to be consistent about anything and its very troublesome. However, I have been making steps to change this behavior (as much as I can without therapy in the meantime) So, three weeks ago a friend of mine asked me to start doing a crunch challenge. I started that and soon after I added the squat challenge. Since I am very motivated /obsessive what ever you would like to call it...I started adding different types of exercises to my ritual. It soon became unbearable because I was matching the numbers of sets to the exercises that I had been doing for my challenges. For example; first day of crunches was 20 then it went up by 5 each day till the rest day which had you go up by 10.So I went from working out for about 1 hour of my day , to 5 hours. By the first week I had added 8 different arm exercises , 5 leg workouts (including squats), the crunches (added reverse crunches) and Dancing for about 2-3 hours. I had become so consumed with adding something that I may have missed that my exercises started taking longer and longer. On top of that I had stopped eating regular meals and was only eating once a day. I kept staring at the mirror and looking upon myself so critically. I was unable to see myself or any changes. Then, the inevitable happens, I crash and sleep for about 16 hours. Which brings me here to sparkpeople. I realize that I really need a strict guideline for myself so I do not spin out of control. However I have had an account here several years before and in doing so I became over obsessive about the food calculator. I am really unsure of how to keep myself in check. I struggle with body dysphoria, depression and much more. I am currently not on any medication . If you are so inclined, I would love to hear some tips from whomever would like to contribute.
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    1844 days ago
    I can understand the all of nothing mentality. I can become obsessive with everything if I don't watch myself. I can be an overachiever/perfectionist. My first advice would be NOT to eat once a day and to not restrict calories. That is only counterproductive by putting your body into starvation mode.

    Challenges are good, but not to the point that you set yourself up for failure by adding too much. And lastly, perfection is not the goal. Health and happiness are.

    I really understand what you are saying here and relate to much of it. If you ever want to talk or would like an accountability partner, send me a private message. Best wishes!
    1845 days ago
    Keep focused for success. You can do it too. Go for it.
    1845 days ago
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    good blog
    1845 days ago
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