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The quiet time.

Monday, May 27, 2013

Have you ever heard the wonderful silence just before the dawn? Or the quiet and calm just as a storm ends? Or perhaps you know the silence when you haven't the answer to a question you've been asked, or the hush of a country road at night, or the expectant pause of a room full of people when someone is just about to speak, or, most beautiful of all, the moment after the door closes and you're alone in the whole house? Each one is different, you know, and all very beautiful if you listen carefully.”
― Norton Juster
There's been a quiet for days .I have been questioning myself , what is wrong with me that I can stay on track and exercise and not lose . and then binge and know Im binging and how bad I feel afterward and yet not stop it. I have been trying to analyze myself to really get to the bottom of it . I think sometimes my weight means more to someone else then to me. The encouragement when I do good and the reprimands when I do badly...but even the encouragement feels bad sometimes.The compliments feel bad . When your told your pretty but you don't feel pretty . Then when you feel the need to be perfect and it makes you just notice every one of your imperfections .
I never really notice things about other people . I remember one lady I worked with and she said something about how she had lost her teeth , I was shocked and never noticed ...Another time someone said to me about a girl I know . She would be really pretty if she didn't have that one droopy eye . I never noticed... My best friend says hes going bald , I look and I cant see it.Even though he repeatedly shows bends his head down and says LOOK !HERE !!.
I just wonder what would happen if nobody noticed my imperfections and just saw me .What would happen if I stopped looking at my own like I never look at other peoples. I don't know . I hope this quiet I feel inside right now will help me understand why I do what I do and feel what I feel, and to learn to see myself the way I see other people.
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    Love this blog. The quote is amazing. Love the way you sense your own
    special quiet and the way you think things through.

    As far as noticing..........I think most people don't notice a lot of things!
    I did a blog on that point after I came back from vacation this spring.
    It actually kind of turned me around my thinking some.

    1819 days ago
  • ELSCO55
    We area all beautiful in his eyes.
    1851 days ago
    More importantly think how God feels about you just as you are. He thinks you are beautiful, special, and one of a kind; for after all He gave you life.
    Psalms 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made:marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
    Have a wonderful day and just know you are beautiful.
    I use to think the most negatives thoughts of myself; but then I realized that would be throwing off on my maker. I need to try to maintain a healthy body for his glory.
    He sure has to help me big time. emoticon
    1851 days ago
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