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Monday, May 27, 2013

I'm sick of my weight being a part of my life...like a conjoined twin...the (pardon my choice of words) elephant in the room. I feel I have to make apologies or excuses or worse yet, feel ashamed. This is insane and I've had enough!

Tipping the scales at nearly 280 pounds is a bit humbling. I don't feel 280 pounds. Well, except when I lie down and my heart starts racing. Or when I try to get dressed and nothing fits. Or when I happen to look in a mirror and see myself. OK, on second thought, maybe I do but I'm in denial.

I've gained 30 pounds in about eight months...I've been over 225 pounds for the past 22 years. That's almost half my life. Is this the message I want to sent to my children? To my grandchildren one day? Am I even going to be here to see my grandchildren? Something has to change. I've lost and gained hundreds of pounds over the years and somehow seem to end up right back here. Self-pity and self-loathing is about as effective as eating a box of cookies...it's time to move!
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  • FORTY2014
    I found what you wrote very honest. I see that you are listening to your self and your self needs. Now it's just the support is what you need. I was 212 at 4"11 you can see all my weight and I feel it when I can't button up my pants and It's like a job to tie my shoe lace... but together we can do this even if it one pound a week... We see what we are doing and now we need to stop and make the changes we need to get ourself better.

    I support you!
    1793 days ago
    Kep focused for success. You can do it too. Go for it.
    1793 days ago
    I can relate to you. We can only take it one day at a time. One step in front of the other. We may stumble, so we pick ourselves up and continue again and again as many times as it takes. We can never give up. If I can do it so can you.
    1793 days ago
    Sounds like you are ready to make a change. Change is not easy, if it was then there would be no overweight people. Change is a journey, and a journey begins with one step. emoticon
    1793 days ago
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