Things are great.
Monday, May 27, 2013
It's going well for the most part... Iv been around on sparkpeople a week now. I have made some questionable food choices but I have just averaged out my other calories for the day and stopped with just a little of the junky foods. I know that is going to be the issue I need to covercome the most.
Going to the gym after work yesterday was a big big deal for me. My work is very active and I am just plain worn out after work, but I made myself go yesterday, I didn't overdo it, and I felt better than I did when I first got off. I am gaining muscle already and my back is hurting less. I can't believe it has been only a few days since I started the gym and I really, honestly feel like my back feels better than it has in a year or two.
I have lost a few pounds too... I feel motivated which is my huge downfall most of the time. Saying f it and eating ice cream is just so much more comforting. Well, it was... I really can picture myself doing this and looking and feeling great. I have a mental image of myself and I imagine myself as that person.
The last 5 years have been a really big time of growth for me. I have changed into a totally different person. I am on the path to enlightenment I guess. I try to focus on the present and be mindful of how all people are connected. When I live like this and try to remain at peace, everything else is just better. It's been a slow, hard road, but I feel pretty confident about myself now and I really know who I am now. It is the perfect time to get my weight and shape in order, it is natural to want your outside to match your inside.... If you change how you feel about yourself first, love yourself the way you are now and notice that you are a perfect creation. The weight will dissapear because you will be at peace.