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Back In The 120's

Friday, May 24, 2013

Yep, after my whining in my blog on May 21st, I am happy to say, that as predicted, I finally lost a pound. It was a pound and a half to be exact. So, when I woke up this morning, the scale said "128.5."

It's the first time I've weighed in the 120's since 2007. I had to check that. I had to go look at old pictures on my computer to get a date for the last day I remember being in the 120's. It was right before my grandmother died. After she was gone, all of my ability to care about my health or how I looked went out the window. I plumped up. I hid from the world.

Well, I don't have time for that ridiculous self pity any more. The years 2005-2007 were the darkest of my life, and my life has never been easy. It's taken me this long to shake the dust off and find myself again. I have shed my old, selfish, superficial friends...and have surrounded myself with new, compassionate, fun friends, who don't care what size jeans I wear. I have removed myself from the toxic games my family engages in and refuse to be dragged back into their collective meltdown. My changes in my effort to be healthy haven't just been about a number on the scale, but about living a life filled with integrity and love.

Life STILL isn't easy for me, but I feel like I am stronger than I ever have been before.

Eight point five pounds to go, Sparkers! Be strong!
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    Congratulations, on ALL of the changes in your life! emoticon
    1826 days ago
    emoticon Back to the 120's!!! WOW!!!

    I am sorry to hear about your past setbacks and the negative circumstances surrounding you, but mostly I am very glad about your attitude!

    All that you described,'s life and we all go through it one way or another! Admittedly some have it better than others, but still what matters is our attitude!
    And from what I read you are nailing it! You lead your own life and fight any negative influences, instead of letting them get to you. It is not easy but you manage to do it!
    A big congratulations for all your achievements!
    1826 days ago
    Now you are making the life you deserve. Keep up the good work!
    1826 days ago
    emoticon Good for you
    1826 days ago
    Thank you!
    1827 days ago
    Shedding the weight of toxic relationships and attitudes can be harder and take longer than shedding the pounds --- and have even more affect on our health and the joy in our lives.

    Kudos for doing the hard work necessary on ALL fronts and creating the life and body that will bring you the most joy.

    1827 days ago
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