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Jack Is Home Already

Friday, May 24, 2013

So, the lady who runs the cremation facility called today and she offered to bring Jack's ashes out to me. I said yes. He is not yet in an urn, but they sent the urn and it is a beautiful wood box with flowers carved on it and the nameplate that says "Jack" on the first line and "Our Precious Baby Boy" on the 2nd line. I'll try to get a pic to post of it. The paw print is made like an ornament so I can hang it on the tree if I want. I will probably put it where I have year round access to it. Both the paw print and the nose print are on paper and can be scanned to make charms for a bracelet. I'll probably do that. The most disappointing thing is that her son is now her assistant and isn't very good about following directions and forgot to get a hair clipping. It is the one thing that gave me some meaning and blah! He's another example of too many irresponsible people in their 20s! Grrr! But, Anthony assured me that we have plenty of Jack's hair around the house to get me some to put into my locket. I figured as much. They also told me that if I sent them a picture and a story about Jack he would be posted on their web site's memorial page. I like that idea too.

She asked if Jack was a service animal. I told her I would like to lie to her since service animal cremations and keepsakes are free for the person with the disability, but couldn't do it! For one thing, I don't lie. For another the idea of Jack being my service animal makes me laugh too hard! If that were so, we'd both would have been dead a long time ago! I often have told my Mixed Mutt Doghouse friends how Jack leading me would be like a Macy's Thanksgiving Parade with me being one of the giant blow up balloons trailing after Jack as we wondered to all the pee mails on the track we were taking!So, I paid for my dog's cremation and keepsakes!

I can't stand how fast it all went. So much suffering over a too long piece of time that really wasn't too long, but still too long for my baby to suffer. The death happened so quickly and then the next day I have his remains! Too fast.

I bumped my elbow in the shower this AM and didn't get a bark suspecting it was a car door. Anthony went to his morning routine to put fresh water and food in Jack's bowls and then remembered he had to thow it out. The "bug man" came today with no warning. (exterminater) We gave him the rest of Jack's food. Those guys don't make much and he is a really nice man with a dog. I gave him a couple toys that Jack never had the energy to destroy too. Coming home to this empty house really sucks!

Well, I'm either getting sick or I simply cried too much yesterday. My throat is killing me. I think I will lie down until Anthony gets home from work.

Before I go.... Thank you each and every one of you most compassionate, caring Spark Friends! I am trying to respond to each person who sent me a goody, but can't do it for blog responses and all comments. So, here is an all embracing thank you! Each of you needs to know how your kinds words and gestures help me! They do.
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  • BUBBLES1955
    I am so Happy for you that he is finally back where he belongs" HOME WITH YOU"
    Take comfort that he will be with you in your heart, and he is always with you in your memories.
    1852 days ago
  • FISHER011
    I'm sorry for your loss! My heart is heavy with sorrow- missing Jack. It's always best to enjoy your time with fond memories of you and Jack when you are able to.
    It happened too soon...but now Jack is no longer in pain...He will be watching over you Jaxmommy & waiting for you. Take care of yourself- Jack is watching over you from Above!
    You & Jack & Anthony will be in my thoughts and prayers.
    Peace & love be with you
    1852 days ago
    Pets are people too. We miss their personalities as well as their physical presence. My little guy went to sleep in 2011 but I still jump out of bed some mornings thinking I have to walk him. God bless you with wonderful memories of your precious Jack.
    1853 days ago
  • HICIM705
    Well . . . Jack is back with you - where he belongs. Take care - try to rest . . . I'm sure that the silence in your house is deafening ... but remember that he is with you - in your thoughts and memories and, I'm pretty sure that you will feel his paw every now and again letting you know that he is OK - just like someone else posted.

    Keep posting about how you are doing and how you are feeling - it helps us to know that you are OK and will also help you while you are healing. You and Anthony need to be good to each other . . . I'm sure that Jack would want that. . .
    1853 days ago
    Thanks for keeping us posted. I know this doesn't really help, but I am sending my condolences for your loss. I'm glad you have Anthony's support. Rest. You've been through a lot.
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    Hugs. I'm so sorry for your loss. I know hard it is to loose a beloved pet. :(
    1854 days ago
    So glad that have Jack back home with you. It was give you some peace and closure.
    It was nice of you to give Jack's food & toys to someone who needs it. Jack is giving you a "high-five" on that.

    You will never forget him, and will probably feel a paw from time-to-time. That will be Jack letting you know he is okay, and loves you.

    1854 days ago
  • FIT4MEIN2013
    I am so sorry for your loss!
    1854 days ago
    Now begins the settling in process.
    If the silence becomes too painful, find a CD of birdsongs and play it all day long.
    It will lift your spirits.


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  • SHEL_V2
    The box always does come back too soon. So sorry for your loss. The first time, I couldn't stand to put the box somewhere I saw it every day. The most recent time, I couldn't stand the idea of putting "him" away. I touch that box a few times a day.
    1854 days ago
    So glad you have Jack home where he is always in your heart. I did the same for my girl Booboo. It gives me comfort to know she is close by. So very sorry for you lose. Hugs.
    1854 days ago
    I'm so happy you have him home with you already. Hopefully the healing can start. You will never stop missing him but it will hurt less - eventually.
    1854 days ago
    Honestly, it never goes away. It fades, but it never goes away. Sometimes, when I come home, I STILL look for my Detta peering over the fence for me:( And that was two years ago. Just know that it DOES get easier. The pain and sadness fade into the background, only brought out in similar situations, or when a particular memory is triggered. It was really nice of you to donate the food and toys to another owner:) I did that with my cat, when she died. I'm glad I'm not the only one:) *BIG HUG*
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    I am glad that you have Jack back with you so soon. It was over a week before my mother got the remains of out cat back. Naturally you will continue to listen for him. My mother continues to look for the cat and it has been almost two months.

    We are here for you!!! We love you and that is why we pray for you!!!

    Big hugs!!!
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