Day 219-Not again
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
I didn't blog last night, frankly because I was kind of out of it mentally and yesterday was not a very good day.
The day started out yesterday with early morning witnessing and then it was off to the dr where things took a turn. As you all know, I had the pain stimulator put in almost exactly a year ago and I have been able to accomplish so much since then. However, my pain is returning after having to leave the gym early on Monday. Also, my right foot has gone numb. So I went to see my dr to get her opinion. I knew that the relief was temporary, that it wouldn't stop the bone disease, I don't think I thought it would wear off this quick though. After much discussion, her comment was "well, we bought you a year" In other words, the stenosis of my spinal column and the dissolving of the bone is into the next phase. We knew that I was still headed for life in a chair at some point, that doesn't make the inevitable any easier to accept. She is ordering some nerve tests and sending me back to the pain specialist. It looks like the beginning of paralysis is beginning though. I left there and went to see my wifey at work to tell her about my dr visit, we both struggled to hold back the tears and I still am holding them back. I am not giving up by any means! I will not go down easily!! I am a lot healthier than I was, but I still have some to achieve and I am determined to get it done before I can't.
Today,k was another early morning witnessing day followed by regular ministry. Then some studying and not much else. I am taking it easy hoping that it will ease up a bit. The dr did say that 1 day at the gym is my maximum right now. At least she didn't take it away already. Tomorrow is M&M day. Friday brings a 4 day weekend for the kids, and our anniversary is Saturday.
I know that Jehovah God will give me the power beyond what is normal to keep moving forward. Good night.