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Starting over with my baby steps

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Okay, so starting over isn't the right phrase, but it makes a good blog title. I know that I'm most assuredly not starting where I began. I'm making smarter choices and being healthier overall.

But I have to sit down and pour out my heart to you. I'm not where I should be. I've fallen down and I'm having a hard time getting up.

I haven't tracked in months, and I don't *want* to.

I haven't exercised in months, but I desperately want to. Lord knows my checkbook wishes I would; I'm paying for the damn gym membership.

I'm 187.4, but I hit 189 last week. I had gotten to 184. I'm really disappointed in my weight gain.

So I think that rather than jumping back in holding on to everything I know for dear life and trying to do everything at once like I've tried and failed to do a couple of times in the past few months, I'm going to set myself small, attainable goals.

For starters, I'm setting myself something I'm calling the Charlie Brown challenge.

30 pushups a day. I can do that. I'll do as many regular pushups as a I can, then finish off with modified ones as necessary.

I'm also going to start a full-body strength training program. I'm going to see what classes are being offered at the gym, although the last time I checked they'd cancelled all of the classes in the morning I wanted to attend (aside from the 5:30 AM one... that is NOT happening.) I want to use the gym for weights, though. I can get cardio easily, and prefer not being in a treadmill-grinding situation if I can help it.

My other goal is to join the bike rides at the bike store I went to. 25 miles. I can do that. I used to ride that much thinking without thinking about it. I love to bike. As much as I want to run, I have to accept that for now, I just suck at it. I don't know if it's that my weight is simply too much, or what... but biking, I can do that endlessly. I push myself too, it's not about ease... it's all about the skeletal system and its willingness to tolerate high-impact exercise. So I'm going to shelve the running for now, and focus instead on biking, my first love. I'll try running again in 20 lbs or so. :) So my weekly cardio will be on the bike.

Once I'm consistent again with the exercise, I'll start tracking my nutrition again, unless I'm making decent downward weight progress. I'm going to focus on healthier choices, of course, including lots more fresh veggies than I've been getting. This should be fairly easy, the girls are out of school, so there's more motivation to eat healthy in here. :) I'm not going to really change my eating volume right now, just my exercise volume.

In the morning, I'm going to post my before pictures. I'd take them now, but I had chinese buffet for lunch. ;) I've taken new measurements, reset all my goals (no, I don't think I'll be hitting 165 by July 31st.)
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    I'm proud of you. You are one of my inspirations, you are strong and so wonderful. You are doing great. You WILL do it again!
    2079 days ago
    Sound like you have bitten off a lot of goals for someone wanting to take "baby steps". I'm not criticizing, just wishing you the best of success emoticon
    2087 days ago
  • BILL60
    Let's get back on that wagon. Don't forget to drop and do "20" for getting off the program. Good luck, my friend.
    2099 days ago
  • CLARK971
    You always have great advice for others. If you need motivation, just re-read some of your posts. You provide lots of great advice and inspiration. You don't make excuses, (and you have some valid reasons to make excuses, with all you have going on) and I think that is a great start.

    It sounds like you have a plan to get back on track. emoticon

    Baby steps!
    2099 days ago
    OK I'm going to be 100% honest here... I don't know why but I've always picked up on your profile picture and have read a lot of your responses to blogs since I joined in January and I always felt a little intimidated. I think it was those guns!! emoticon Also, you always seem to have the answers and offer such great advice to members who are struggling. My point is (and I really don't mean this in a bad way) that it gives me a little comfort to know that EVERYONE struggles..... even our idols (even though you didn't know you were one of mine) I keep trying to tell myself that this journey is hard, it is long and it is NEVER going to end. Sometimes we are outrageously motivated and successful and sometimes we "just don't want to". But as long as we still have our goals in mind and we know how to reach them, if we stumble every now an then, life is not over, and we are not failures and we don't have to quit because we had a few bad days. Spark people has taught me this. So thanks for your input in the past (even though you didn't know you were inspiring me) I know you will be fine and that you will reach your goal!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2099 days ago
    Seems like you have a plan... Stick to it and everything is gonna be better!

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    2099 days ago
    I had been wondering where you went! Sorry you hit a slump but I can completely understand that. It happens. All that matters is that you're back in the right mindset again. I'm glad you're back. You've been missed!

    Have fun biking!
    2099 days ago
    you have to admit, running in GA in the summer is usually TORTURE! Biking, yeah. I can generate enough breeze on my bike to cool me off. Don't know that I'll ever be able to run that fast.

    and we all have to go back to baby steps on things at some point
    2099 days ago
  • 123ELAINE456
    One Step at a Time. You Can Do It. This is The WTG!!! God Blessings To You and Everyone. Have a Super Great Day. Take Care. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    2100 days ago
  • GEORGE815
    Hope you get it going again.
    2100 days ago
  • SHEL_V2

    Better to be back at it than still in denial. I had a bit of a sidetrack myself, only gained 1.5 lbs in the first 3 months, then 10 pounds in the next 10 weeks. (Coincidentally, it was Girl Scout Cookie season). I got my rear working out again, and it took a bit to hit the right strategy for being motivated to track what I ate. If I'm not tracking I slip. About 6 weeks into that, I've seen a huge comeback and finally dropped through one of those holding pattern weights. Hope you feel Sparked again quickly.
    2100 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/23/2013 12:07:10 AM
    Good to see you back at it! One step at a time, you can do it.
    2100 days ago
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