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Enough is enough........

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

......Since March, I have been skating on thin ice.....not literally, but with my weight at TOPS........right on the border. In this group you can be 3# over and lose up to 7# and still remain a KOP, but I have been right on the edge for over 2 months now, and I've decided today...doing some positive self ends....I'm done. I've been thinking that just one more won't hurt me, of whatever "treat" I may want, but it is that EXTRA one that has gotten me to almost be out of being a KOP. I've noticed my jean capris from last summer are a little snugger, and that surprised me! Then I though, why should that surprise me.......I looked back at my food journal and I see the frown faces I put on several of my days of journaling emoticon !!!

It's time to as I'm sure you've heard before...PULL UP THOSE BOOTSTRAPS and get that focus back!! I have two weeks to get my act back together or I will lose my KOPS status, and I WILL NOT DO THAT!!

I have noticed the past two months, that I stopped the OUT LOUD positive self talk, and actually talked to myself inside, that "one more Hershey mini candy bar won't hurt me"! That's NOT true.....especially as we age, and I turned 60 on the 13th!! Now, it didn't help that my wonderful husband bought me a lovely white cake with decadent frosting and a wonderful quart of triple peanut butter (regular) ice cream, but did I have to finish it off within 3 days?? OK, I did share the cake with him and even took some to the elderly care home where my mom lives, but that ice cream just called me till it was gone.....and I GAVE IN! I.....ME.....I made the choice to continue to eat it, and I did not move as much (exercise) as I usually have done in the past! Why not.....after all it was my birthday!!??!! Didn't I deserve it??!!! Ya, but did I have to finish it off within 3 days! It is about portion control...I know that and so do you!

It's a brand new day........a brand new year (with my b-day being over a week ago) for me......and YOU to start anew and get my (your) good habits going get that tunnel vision back! My hubby did not help matters with the b-day treats, however, as he said to me last night after I ate that peanut butter cookie that was out at a presentation on social security that we went need a little more self control. In all the 35 years of marriage, this is the first time, he has ever said that to me, and I think I needed that!! Oh, ya, did I tell ya.......he retired, and his last day at work was 4/30, and now he is here 24/7!!! Now that is something to get used to, if you have been pretty much the queen of your home for those 10-12 hours and come and go as you please, and now all of a sudden, I have to say goodbye, give him a kiss, which I don't at all mind doing, feeling like I need to tell him where I'm going, when I'll be home, etc! It's a new thing for both of us, but with God's guidance and help, we will be OK! I know that for a fact! It's just a little weird, that he doesn't leave to go anywhere in the mornings! He is finishing up the family room painting, loves to tinker with his 2 classic sports cars and he writes comedy too.....and even performs it. Oh, ya, he's a writer for Jay Leno too, so I'm very proud of him, and he deserves to have relaxation and other fun things in his life.....he's paid his dues by working over 40 some odd years!

I'm glad I blogged feels great, and feels like I may have lost a little's a huge burden off my shoulders to unload my feelings! Thanks for reading (listening) and may God continue to bless all of you!


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    Oh Barbara isn't it so easy to slide where food is concerned...well done you for shaping up and being determined to look the issue right in the eye!!
    1794 days ago
    I really enjoyed reading your Blog also, Barbara! It is just a good reminder to us that even our successful friends still have to work at keeping the weight off and it is something we have to be diligent about for the rest of our lives. Your blog really struck home base with me as well and I thank you for your input! Great words of wisdom! emoticon
    1794 days ago
    I know you can do it. You've done so well all along & been such a wonerful motivator for us. Get at it Barb!
    1795 days ago
    CHOICE - you're in control.
    1795 days ago
    I understand completely. We have DIL birthday on Monday and I was just thinking how that piece of cake and ice cream will set me back. !!! Sometimes she leaves me with cake, refuses to take bc she doesn't want to gain (she has a gorgeous figure). But I know you'll cut that candy out and get back on track. emoticon
    1795 days ago
    The changes - granted, pretty positive changes - are enough to shake up the routine. Keep to your good habits and OWN that KOP spot!

    1795 days ago
    You can do it! So proud of you for having a made up mind!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1795 days ago
    I can totally relate to most of what you are saying. The same kind of habits that you are describing are what got me in trouble many years ago- but I was not as smart as you and I didn't get back on track. I bounced in and out of leeway for months and then one time I didn't get back in and lost my KOPS status- and that started a period of "bad attitude syndrome" and even more weight gain. It has been over 14 years since I lost my KOPS status and I have never gotten close to being back there. It is much harder to lose the second (or third or fourth) time around, so you are wise to get things under control now. I know how proud you were when you became a KOPS and I will be cheering you on as you get back on track and get to the lower end of your range.

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    Comment edited on: 5/22/2013 6:01:15 PM
    Great blog! I know you can stay a KOP. Retirement is an adjustment for all in the house - you are so wise to get yourself back on track right away and start this new part of your life together on the healthy path. Big hugs for strength, because I know you have the knowledge and will!
    1795 days ago
    Blogging is a great way to release pent up emotions without damaging either yourself or someone else.

    Make Today a Great Day!
    1795 days ago
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