Wednesday, May 22, 2013
I'm having a hard day today. I've been thinking about my oldest son, my first born. He hasn't had any contact with me for over 2 months now. He said I'm not his mother anymore. No one can hurt you quite like your kids. He says I've never been there for him but I raised him it's his dad that left when he was 4! He still talks to his dad and he never does this to him! Hes done this to me before, when he was 17 he didn't have any contact with me for 2 years. Now hes 32 and hes doing this again except this time he told me I'm not his mother anymore and don't try to contact him again. I contacted him once since then but received no reply! Some days are harder then others. I don't think I could make it at all without the rest of my children and my faith in God. I will try to get to a more positive place but today I just want to cry!